#forestedland

i was tagged by the lovely chrysalis1996 *smile*  thank you, golden!

1. your nickname - i’ve never had one. others always used just my name to describe me, probably for the better. i see chandra as sort of my inner name but no one knows about it outside tumblr. 

2. your eye color - green. it’s the only part of my body that i’ve always loved. and since i believe my soul to be a dark green colour, i like to imagine that if one were to look into my eyes long enough, they would find themselves in the ancient forest of my soul 

3. your hair color - it’s always been dark brown, as i’ve never dyed it. sometimes i imagine myself in a different colour but i know i wouldn’t take care of my hair properly so it’s possible i will never do it? who knows.

4 - a fact about you - uhm, i don’t know... just a few days ago i cut my hair really short for the first time in my life. it reaches my chin now. i feel very light thanks to that. 

5 - favorite color - if i had to chose one i would say green (in all it’s glory from newly grown leaves to dark, forest green, deep in the woods) but i love all earthy colours, black, golden... anything really apart from very vibrant and loud ones like red, orange and yellow. 

6 - favorite place - i didn’t know this tag is going to be so difficult *soft laugh* i honestly don’t think i have one. i don’t have a place that is especially dear to my heart, like i could feel safe there, at peace. they were taken away from me one by one, i think. i didn’t lose hope i will find one in the future, though. till then, i’m going to be satisfied with ‘temporary favourite moments’ when i’m in my room talking to J, or when i’m sitting in the park during a really nice weather, reading a book with no one interrupting me, or just this lovely place my mind sometimes drifts off to when i imagine all the possibilities of life without any dark thoughts ruining it for me. 

7 - favorite celebrity - again, i’m afraid i don’t have one. sure, i love quite a few artists and they have a special place in my heart but i wouldn’t call them my ‘favourite celebrities’ so. 

8 - favorite animal -  definitely bears and bees *smile* my love for bears developed first but bees found a very special place in my soul soon after (i like how they are oddly connected in the real world as well). i love all animals and i feel somewhat connected to quite a few, like wolves or crows... but these two have a much deeper meaning to me. 

9 - favorite song - *soft laugh* i can’t do this, these questions are impossible! there are many songs i would say i have a soul connection with but to chose one is impossible, i’m afraid. still, since i’ve known yndi halda i thought this is how my soul could sound like. 

10 - favorite book - i’m glad this is the last time i will have to say ‘i don’t have one’ in this tag *laugh* there are so many tittles that changed me, inspired me... words that felt so oddly like my own. soul mate writers i’ve found in between pages like Virginia Woolf or Sylvia Plath... or biographies of people i’ve read that made my heart ache like Tove Jansson’s for example, adventures I found fascinating and I swallowed page by page, hungry for more like Tolkien’s the Lord of the Rings or Dumas’s Three Musketeers... It’s impossible to chose one, or name just a few. All periods of my life have different favourite books and they all play an important role in my life. 

Beauty and the Beast: What makes a person beautiful in your eyes?

Oh, Beauty and the Beast is my favourite fairy tale *smile* I loved it since I was little, especially for the message it tells us. I had problems with accepting my face and my body since I can remember and I’ve always hoped I will meet people that won’t be bothered by how I look and just love my soul. That’s why when I saw Belle I felt deeply connected to her. So answering the question, love is what makes a person beautiful. Love meaning passion towards something as well. Oh you just have to adore someone that talks about what they are passionate about - looking at the sparkles in their eyes immediately makes them wondorous. There were people that I met in my life that I didn’t like at first but when they started talking about something they love I couldn’t help but to love them for that as well. That’s why I try to be patient with people, even those that intimidate or annoy me at first, and wait for their true self to come out. People full of love are gentle and pure, no matter what they’ve been through or what they’re struggling with. 

Pinocchio: What is your greatest wish?

Castle in the Sky - What is the biggest discovery you have made?

I’m not sure If I’ve ever discovered anything that would be worth mentioning here… I suppose some of my biggest discoveries were concerning music or books. Some of the bands I’ve discovered over the years helped me more than I probably realize at the moment and the same goes for books. I think tumblr could count as well? I met such wonderful, golden people here. I would be a much sadder soul if it wasn’t for them. 

Arriety - Have you ever seen something strange and no one believed you?

Actually, yes. I was 9 or 10 when it happened so that may be why no one believed me but I know it’s true, even though sometimes I cannot believe it myself. My older brother invited some friends over and they were all in his room and, of course, I wanted to join them. They lit candles in a circle and tried to ‘talk to ghosts’ and it sounded so exciting for me. I joined them and we held hands and my brother said something that probably sounded very silly and when nothing happened we just laughed. It was already dark and the whole expirience was quite frightening for me so I left and went to my room. But before I could turn on the light a ball of light appeared, coming from the windowd. It flew across the room and disappeared in the power outlet. I know it sounds quite spooky and silly but it really happened! I don’t think that those two things (‘calling out spirits’ and this) were connected but you have to admit it’s an interesting coincidence (: Anyway I forgot about it for a few years and when I remembered again that something like this actually happened to me I searched the internet and found something called a ball lightining which is an unexplained atmospheric phenomenon which might have been what I saw that day.

I told about it to some of my friends but I’m not sure they believed me. I undestand they scepticism though. It was an eerie (but still quite fascinating *smie*) expirience.

Spirited Away -  Do you ever forget names of people you know well?

It happens sometimes… I really don’t like it but my mind is so often in the clouds that when I come back to reality I’m often confused at first. It’s not even that I forget people’s names I just distort them. For example, it happens sometimes that when I think about someone I tend to call others with that person’s name by accident. Luckly, no one ever got mad about it, knowing that I do not do it on purpouse (: 

i don't think it's 'nice' but i'm currently procrastinating instead of studying to a very difficult exam that is tomorrow and the guilt is killing me (haha yes it's definitely not nice) 

i will have my last exam on Friday, which means that I can finally come back home for a while. i'm spending the evening with my friends and then travel by train on Saturday's morning

i haven't seen gravity yet and one of my friends said it was really boring so i was reluctant to do so but i have this other friend that absolutely loved it (he went to the cinema 4 times already!) and said that i have to see it so he invited me to the imax cinema tomorrow at night (it's not like i have an exam on friday, not at all)

i got a wonderful board game from my friends called risk: lord of the rings! it's absolutely amazing and i cannot wait to play it with them!

i feel a strong need to do something with my hair. i've never actually done anything with it and now i was thinking about cutting it short maybe... i don't know yet but i'm excited (:

beautiful!

oh golden, i love you to bits. you are the loving one here! 

tusedays are quite tiresome as i have long and difficult classes but oh, the weather was beautiful today. and i had my new sunflower skirt and felt, i don’t know, content i suppose. when i came back home i didn’t do anything in particular… it’s one of those days in which you cannot do anything productive, even if you wanted to. it’s just… impossible. hours flew by me and suddenly it’s after midnight and my eyes are starting to get heavier and heavier. tomorrow is supposed to be pretty warm so me and my friend decided to go to one of the parks and i’m very excited about it. perhaps i will take a few nice photos and show them to you (: 

you are lovely! :)

i'm insanely addicted to tea

i'm going to dye my hair even more gingerish in four days and i'm quite afraid of the result as i always am

i enjoy knitting and sewing

i sometimes find myself thinking in English though i'm Estonian