do you think rumi wrote anything for mira and zoey to read should the golden honmoon kill her?
maybe even two versions of each letter for them, because she couldnât decide if she wanted to let them know about her being half-demon after her death or not.
obviously she doesnt give it to them. she doesnt die to the golden honmoon because they dont make it. so the letters just sit in a box in her room back on jeju, where the only person who knew about them was celine, who was asked to give them to their respective recipients in the case of her death (which made celineâs eyes flash with terror and her breath catch in her throat and start coming out funny, but rumi couldnt stop to think about that because shes too busy repressing and hating herself to think about how her death would affect her loved ones)
one day, the three of them visit jeju to go get some of their old stuff, just on a whim or because celine wants to make some space.
and mira and zoey find the letters. and they read them (because there are no more secrets between them now, and besides, theyâre addressed to them and they look like half a decade old)
by the time theyâve finished reading them, theyre sobbing on floor, leaning on each other for support.
they talk about how proud she is of them. how much she loves them. how in love with them she is. all the things she loves about them. how sheâs so glad they were the ones chosen by the honmoon to be her teammates, how thereâs nobody in the world she wouldâve rather been hunters with.
she leaves them guitars and pianos. divies up stuffed animals that wouldâve felt even more lifeless without her there. she tells them which hoodies they can each have, because she knows they love her hoodies (they love them because theyâre rumiâs, because they smell like her. eventually, theyâd stop doing that, and theyâd just be some clothes).
she ends the letters by telling them that sheâs proud to have died for a cause as worthy as the golden honmoon. to not spend the rest of their lives mourning her because they deserve a life of peace and freedom from the heavy responsibility thrusted upon them by the universe, and thoughts of her will only weigh them down.
and thats just the non reveal letters.
they crack open the other letters addressed to them, expecting, hoping to see a happier version of those letters, one for when she didnât die when they made the golden honmoon.
theyâre not. theyâre almost the exact same letters, but theres a section in each of them of her confessing to be a demon. not even half demon. she just figured if she died, then she must be a demon, full stop. she apologizes for not telling them. for not trusting them with the information. for being a monster (zoey almost throws up when she reads that. mira almost tears the paper to shreds). she tells them they shouldnt mourn her, becomes demons are unworthy of any grief dedicated to them.
its about this point that rumi finally walks into the room. shes been helping celine with some stuff in another room, and celine got suspicious when they couldnât hear the two of them for a while, because usually that meant they were up to something.
rumi comes in, cheerful and curious, saying âhey guys! what are up toâŚâ
she sees the letters. sees the devastation in their faces. she rushes to explain, tries to tell them âi swear i was gonna burn those! i just forgot! they kind of became irrelevant after the golden honmoon thing became a bust anyways! i-â as she speaks, they approach her, slowly inching towards her until their right in her face.
they grab it. both of them look at her, inspecting her skin, trace her patterns, delicately at first then firmer. she lets them inspect her, unsure of what it is theyre looking for, until they both have a hand over her heart. they gasp in sync with her heartbeat.
and then they break out in sobs, hugging her from either side, crying about how much they love her, how glad they are that sheâs still here, how the golden honmoon wouldâve meant nothing to them if it had killed her, how theyâre glad theyâll never see it now.
she can barely keep up with what theyâre saying because theyre a little incoherent and theyâre kind of talking over one another and theyâre talking kinda fast, and then they start kissing her and her mind goes a little blank
(celine finds them mid-life-affirming-sex, and mira and zoey barely stop what theyre doing to rumi to yell at her to get out, partly because they wanna keep going and canât while sheâs there, and partly because they cant look at her right now after reading those letters without feeling a little sick.
rumi, for her part, doesnât even realize celine had entered the room. she just lets out a moan of bliss when the two of them continue ravaging her.)
