@finesthexāāā took inspiration from this & said :Ā Ā āĀ Ā do you even feel anythingĀ ?Ā Ā āĀ
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā feel anything---- ?Ā Ā Ā you wanna knowĀ if i feel anything ?Ā Ā well , š°š„š¬š šØ , if you really must know , let me tell you what it is exactly that i feel .Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā & her name on his tongue is bitter .Ā Ā Ā Ā the bile in the back of his throat tastes ever so horrid & as fingers tremble , eyes grow wide with the imagery of his guts splayed fresh against hardwood floors .Ā Ā Ā is it finally , in a fit ofĀ šššš šššš that he rips himself open for her ?Ā Ā Ā is it finally , in aĀ ššššššš šššššš that he unfolds his insides for an open viewing ?Ā Ā flared are his nostrils , chest heaving heavily as an unfamiliar chemical courses through him---Ā Ā a poisonĀ ,Ā Ā a venom that he canāt quite comprehend .Ā Ā it was fear . lock , in all his time , had experienced fear in every aspect , heād grasped the concept in itās entirety--Ā Ā lived in it , enveloped himself in it , enraptured himself in it .Ā Ā Ā but this fear---Ā Ā Ā fear ofĀ ššš¢š§š šÆš®š„š§šš«ššš„š---Ā Ā Ā was all to alien .Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā you wanna know what i feel , shock ?Ā Ā well ,Ā Ā š¢ šššš„ šš¦š©šš² .Ā Ā Ā i feel broken .Ā Ā i feel bitter & cold & every time i breathe my entire body feels like itās breaking with it .Ā Ā Ā my bones ache with a pain that pierces so sharply it feels like i canāt even breathe .Ā Ā Ā ---Ā Ā but do you wanna know the worst part of it all , shock ?Ā Ā do you wanna fucking know ?Ā Ā āĀ Ā still , does her name leave a sour taste in his mouth---Ā Ā Ā frigid & frozen & fervid is he---Ā Ā š ššØš² š¬šØ šš«šØš¤šš§Ā & beyond repair .Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā the worst part about it is that the only time i donāt feel the pain---Ā or the only time the pain it put on a temporary hold---Ā Ā is when š²šØš® š¦šš¤š š¢š š¬šØ .Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā heart twists in his chest & as anxiety heightens , so does the rate of his rapidly heaving torso .Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā you make me feel warmĀ .Ā Ā Ā itās like---Ā Ā Ā youāre in control of me .Ā Ā when you touch me , shock , tender or not , the emptiness , the aching , the cold---Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā it all goes away .Ā Ā Ā Ā you make me feel---Ā Ā you ignite something in me .Ā Ā Ā & that fucking scared meĀ š±š¬ š”š¢šš±š„ .Ā Ā so , yeah . i feel .Ā but i really wish i fucking didnāt .Ā Ā ā
