#financials

Two of my Rx refilled today and the total taken out of my bank account is 2 digits longer than it usually would be. I am now in the negative again, and not happy about it.

But… it should be… better.

Sigh… I’m gonna ask my boss to give me as many hours as she can give me. Lol

But I know funding is tight… so we’ll see…

Stock Market Is A Scam T-Shirt

There are many people out there who are not in the Stock Market because they believe it to be a scam…

Good morning! Who's ready for some infuriating numbers about audiobook sales?

In December I released His Secret Illuminations as an audiobook, after over six months of production that I paid for out of pocket. I released it on my website, through Findaway Voices, and on Audible. We're going to talk about the last one.

I just got my Audible earnings report and payout for the December sales of said audiobook. I sold 15 copies & made $186.98 in net sales. Sounds pretty good, right?

Hahahaha, it only sounds good. My actual royalties were $46.75. All the rest of that money went into Amazon's pockets.

I knew my Audible royalties would be pathetic going in, but I made the personal and political choice to do a non-exclusive release through Audible so I could sell my book elsewhere and do my tiny part to break their monopoly. (A non-exclusive release through Audible means I make 25% of the cover price in royalties instead of 40%.) I couldn't not release this book on Audible for the same reasons I couldn't not release the paperback and ebooks on Amazon: That's where people buy books. They own the market, and it sucks!

I understand why people buy through Audible, and I'm not blaming the consumer... But if those 15 sales had happened through my website? I would have made $348.45. Can you see what a difference that is for a self-published author who's working toward going full-time with writing? Can you see how that's better compensation for someone who has to do every single part of the process herself?

I would like to once again say, with my whole chest: Fuck Audible.

i’ve recently had to empty my bank account to pay for some bills and it led me to being overdrawn, which is something i can’t afford right now, as the bank is going to continue taking money and i can’t pay it right now.

i need financial assistance, specifically to pay for my anti-depressants, food, and arthritis medication as i don’t have insurance at the moment. if you can spare even 5 dollars or just a reblog i would be so thankful! if you want me to make you a special header or sidebar or gifset in exchange i’m willing to do that too!

here’s my paypal and cashapp and venmo

.... yeah there is a little dig in there with "more traditional m/m audiences"... yeah you know who it is aimed at.

I love Mattin and Arden and Mil, but I wrote them largely for that audience, which was a bit cynical of me, and I am likely going to have to do something like that again before I do anything else weird or experimental or... you know. Me.

Also a bit of a disappointment that people are not super into Ravenous/the Ring verse I guess without obvious monsterfucking. Which is not a judgment on monsterfuckers, more just me flailing around looking for another series to compete with the Beings and not finding one. (People like Familiar Spirits, but that like does not come close to the Beings love, which is either because of werewolves or dragons or because of.. idk... all the boning in Little Wolf. Yeah I said boning. Suck it, Nathaniel. (suck the boooone))