#finalnote

Don't Blink (Travolta Moment) #singularity #singularityuniversity #lyravr #vrmusic #toronto #evergreenbrickworks ckworks #finalnote #johntravolta #vivevr (at Evergreen Brick Works)

-Hoping that the people I do endless and selfless things for will one maybe one day do something nice or even acknowledge the measures I go too and not treat me like a piece of absolute shit in return. Every single human being I have had in my life has done this to me. And honestly I never stop them because I care and by the time they've hurt me it's too late to push them away because the damage is done. I don't know how when and what is going to change this...but no lie every. single. person. In my life does this to me. Whether I loved them, worked with them, are family, are school peers or in projects or sporting teams.. And with that. Whenever I fucking defend myself and say no that's actually not right how you are treating me... Instead of a positive change happening I am the one that is less respected and judged (Moody,bossy,bitchy) Ater piles of torment I try to stand up for myself to get shot back down further than I was before. I'm the one who solves everyone's issues, helps out in everyone's life's..and yet I am completely stumped on how to change the one negative constant that has consumed my entire life. What I'd do for equality and courtesy and give and take... The stuff no one seems to know the meanings of anymore let alone the practices. And those were words I could never put into sentences since I first realised what it actually was, over 11 years ago. And has seemed to just intensify due to certain people and things in my life over all of those years.