#fiepige

Okay, ask game time! (not holding back this time so get ready!)

These are all for Crying Wolf, cause I'll never be normal about it <3

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(I know you've answered similar questions about the fic before, so feel free to skip those if you don't wanna answer them again <3 )

Hey, thanks for the ask!! I'm sure I have answered similar questions in the past but fortunately for you, my brain is a sieve that has been thrown over the edge of a waterfall.

☼: how i came up with the idea

I didn't actually come up with the idea all by myself, I'm part of the noirpunk discord server that regularly has little round robin fics and snippets that everyone can add onto. In its very early days, we were discussing what would happen if there were a symbiote that was virtually undetectable (and also, tangentially, what would happen if Hobie became infected) and I was so intrigued by this concept that I asked to use it in an actual fic!

☄: what the writing process was like

Arduous. Writing is like pulling teeth for me lol and Crying Wolf is certainly no outlier. I wrote chronologically whenever I had the time to sit down and think about it, but I had it vaguely planned out from the get-go. The only thing was that I added in another chapter -- chapter four was never meant to exist! I was going to shove everything that happened in chapter four and five in together but that seemed like a little much.

✄: something i deleted before the final draft

I post on a chapter by chapter basis because I'm too impatient to keep an entire wip to myself (trying to change that!) but there was going to be a scene where the symbiote was explicitly purged from Hobie. I decided not to write it because of medical semantics and how it would have made it even longer and also because my mental health was like a raft strapped together by duct tape at that point in the year.

♡: my favorite part

My favourite part is the end bit and Peter's conversation with Hobie because that was the thing that the server went into most detail about when we were cooking up the whole concept. I love thinking back to that night so much!

☠: something i found challenging

Fucking writing the damn thing lol. Motivation is very tricky for me and finishing what I start is even moreso (ta adhd!) but we got there in the end!!! As mentioned before, writing is difficult for me and I'm not actually a very good writer so trying to get it to a standard that I felt honoured what we had originally come up with in the server was definitely a challenge.

☾: how i thought people would respond to the fic

I.. didn't? Getting comments is so incredibly rare and special to me and the fact that I get so many purely because I write the most for noirpunk on ao3 is WILD.

☽: how people *actually* responded

Well they responded for a start lol. I got veritable essays on how bad I made people feel and theories for how it would progress and how well done the whole thing was and people from the server cheering me on and even one person who only investigated for the cannibalism, and were grossed out by it which is incredible. It was just a torrent of warmth and love and it was so confusing to me at the time but so important now looking back. It was an awful time for me and my life and having all those comments and responses was so special.

∞: something i wish i’d done differently

I read back on it a few days ago and it all seems so superficial to me now, so suffice to say most things and be done with it there.

★: something i’m proud to have accomplished

Just fuckin. Writing it. Finishing it. Impacting people's lives with it. That's why I write that's why I do this. And it was my first foray into more violent stuff so I'm glad I started it by diving in headfirst instead of just dipping my toes in.

favorite thing about them: I always considered him one of those character i find similar to me, in some way. His desire of being alone, but at the same time wishing for friendship (even tho he forces himself away from everyone because of the Devil Gene), is something that really speaks to me. I also like him being relentless about pursuing his (destructive) goal. And also him being extremely awkward sometimes, lol.

least favorite thing about them: He’s going crazy… and i don’t like it. In a meta PoV, is just bad writing. Thanks Harada for ruining everything you touch. :v

favorite line: There was a line in Blood Vengeance about him considering himself a monster, but i can’t remember the exact scene, sorry!

brOTP: Xiao, Hwoa, Lars

OTP: XiaoJin<3

nOTP: Ji/na. In general i tend to ignore every ship with him that doesn’t involve Xiao, but that one annoys me the most.

random headcanon: He likes manga, and during the various Heihachi’s work trips that he probably had to endure, he discovered american comics, french bd, ecc. So now his collection is bigger and more varied. Also, he wears eyeglasses regularly: at first it was because of headaches he thought were caused by bad eyesight, but he then discovered the headaches were caused by Devil inside him.

unpopular opinion: nothing that i can think of

song i associate with them: Monster - Sick Puppies I know the reason you’re running scaredI met the monster inside your headYou’ll never know the feeling of being yourselfIt’s not enough, it never stops comingIt’s not enough, so take a breath, say goodbye

favorite picture of them:I can’t find a decent screenshot of him smiling in T4 Hwoa’s ending, but this fanart by Ryo will do. Namco pls give me this Jin again, kthnxbai.

Okay I'm just gonna spam you with asks here so feel free to ignore them if it's too much <3

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 (don't think I've forgotten about the post you made mentioning an alternate ending! 👀👀👀) 10, 11, 13, 14 and 15

Hope this isn't too much! (like I said feel free to ignore these if that's the case!)

I remember you mentioned something about making a lore post about stuff that didn't get put in the fic and maybe you could combine them? If you still feel like making it that is <3 (seriously I still love that fic so much!!!!)

Alright buckle up boys this is gonna get LONG. @voidpants since you sent me an ask with a couple of these in, I'll combine them here <3

This probably goes without saying but there are extreme spoilers for crying wolf below the cut

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way? My recent obsession with vivisection, dissection and cannibalism <33 I know I'm very good at falling into stereotypes and I'm your local transmasc butch unhealthily obsessed with cannibalism <33333

The noirpunk server did, in all honesty. I don't know what I'd do without you guys.

2: What scene did you first put down? The very first scene! I write generally chronologically, unless there's something I'm raring to get down!

3: What’s your favorite line of narration? He pulls back, unable to staunch the hysterical giggles building in his chest, and they tumble free like the intestines of a mutilated fox at the side of a road -- all bloody ropes thick with mucus.

I just like this comparison lol. A close second would be the line about Peter's organs being better to eat than the pigeon.

For the ask game:

🎀 (Gonna force you to say something nice about your writing cause I think it's amazing <3)

💞

🤍

💌 (only if you feel like it, I guess it goes for all of them lol <3)

(Also writing to let you know that Crying Wolf has forever changed my brain chemestry, I saw a crow heading for a roadkill the other day and my first thougth was 'Oh this is just like how Hobie describes his situation in Crying Wolf!' so yeah I'm still very normal about your fic I would say)

hiya! thanks for the ask, always good to see you around!!

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

mmmmmmaybe i am okay at figurative language sometimes

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

really getting a feel for the characters, especially their emotions. i'm not so much of a visual person, so feeling them out is the best way for me to get to grips with a character. anything can help with that, like the way they react in a certain situation to how they treat one specific person. just helps me to 'get to know' them. definitely better when it's from another character's omniscient too because then i have to sift through the layers of narrative, like a fun little puzzle!

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

the last one probably. that's take a bite right out of the sky. it's pretty vague and metaphorical at times, so it's to be expected, but i fully had to break it down in the comments for a couple of confused folks. which is fine! just tells me i need to up my game a bit more

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

well i have about ten or eleven up-and-coming wips at the moment so you take your pick lmao but seriously the thing i'm most excited to be working on right now, i'm collaborating with someone else on!! i've never done this before so i'm a bit nervous (read: so extremely that sometimes i lie in bed and am consumed by terror) but it's good to be pushing out of my comfort zone and the fic premise is one of the most beloved ones i've ever had the pleasure to be working on, so here's hoping that i'm up to scratch

and aaa!! knowing that crying wolf has continued to be in your thoughts is so lovely to hear!!! it's so good to know that i continue to worm my way into other people's brains like a malicious leech <33 hope u had fun thinking about the roadkill

I honestly would love to read your headcanons for all the subjects but I've tried to limit myself to a few:

These are all for Hobie btw ^^'

💔 (angsty headcanon cause I can never get enough angst)

🧸 (childhood headcanon)

😭 (the worst thing that's ever happened to them)

😶 (and a random headcanon)

okay I actually wanted to do a lot more but I'll stop myself here!

It is never too late to participate in an ask game! If I'm a little late in replying, don't worry about it too much, I've probably forgotten or am wondering how to answer it, and you're more than welcome to send long ones in!

Now I'm gonna do these a bit out of order because I'm interconnecting them a little so I hope that's okay!

To preface, I have almost no knowledge of comics canon, I take canon when and where it pleases me. So if you don't vibe with that then this probably ain't the right spot for you kjdshkj

Alrighty

Childhood headcanon: I think he grew up with a very loving community-oriented family which had sort of been scraped together with people that came and went as the times progressed. This means that he had the whole 'fight the power, but never forget who you're fighting for' mentality down pat from a very young age. The thing about Hobie is that he loves. This guy clearly loves his work and life deeply. Perhaps not all the time, but overall. Which leads me onto the next point.

Worst thing headcanon: toss up between a couple of scenarios that were put on the chalkboard in the noirpunk server.

Firstly, that family that was mentioned earlier? That loving family that lifted him up and cared for him as he was growing up? That one? Gone. Dead. Scattered. Disappeared. He's one of the only ones left. And it wasn't gradual either. I think Hobie was perhaps fourteen and not yet bit when Karl grabbed him and hid him in the rafters of the place they were currently occupying, and they watched as riot police systematically murdered everyone that hadn't managed to get out in time. I think that only made him angrier after quite a long period of depression, and he fights every day -- not to 'avenge' them (because that's heroic bullshit and Hobie Brown is not a hero) but to lift up their memories and carry on what they started.

Putting the second scenario in the angsty headcanon because first you need to see the random headcanon to make sense of it (I am running on four hours of sleep and one mug of tea this makes sense in my head I promise)

Random headcanon: There is a Peter Parker in -138. He's Hobie's inside man for the police force/Oscorp and they've been friends for a while. They've had a casual relationship that Hobie knew in theory couldn't last because of Peter's alignment with the government. Peter's a little baby cop that Hobie has been trying to coax out of the government that he knows will destroy him in the end, but Peter comes from That Kind Of Money and is very hesitant about following in Hobie's footsteps (this is when they were 15/16 btw if we're going on that Hobie is around 19 in atsv). To keep the rebellion's efforts up, Peter passes information along to Hobie that he can scrounge up but withholds anything that might be of potential actual use because of his wavering loyalties.

Angsty headcanon: I lied in the last headcanon. There was a Peter Parker in -138. Not anymore. Hobie earned his blue laces the day Peter died. He's not ashamed about it but he doesn't like thinking about it. When he goes to the Society and sees all those Peters walking around he can't help seeing -138 Peter again, which is part of (but not the whole) reason that he avoids the Society even before the whole fiasco with Miles.

“You might be wanting more than a wrap. It’ll scar if you leave it like that.”

thank you for the ask!

😭 cause you know I gotta get that angst! (If you have more than one you'd like to share I'm all eyes 👀👀👀)

And 😍

I know I'm super late so feel free to ignore this if you don't feel like answering 💜

It's never too late to participate in these ask games! I think I actually got sent this exact ask on my main but I'll see what I can do!

😭 angst or sad WIP snippet

I don't actually have a lot of angst at the moment! The most I have right now is a vaguely bittersweet snippet.

Peter gets in there, professionally retires them, and gets out. Job done. Simpler than sewing a button on a cuff, as Aunt May would say. Peter finds himself thinking a lot about what Aunt May would say, these days.

😍 published lines or a section of a fic that you loved writing?

Adored writing this snippet for Crying Wolf because of foreshadowinggggg

“Treacle, if you’re getting bent over if I’ll hurt you or not, I—” His throat closes up and he wavers slightly, knowing this is somehow the worst place to have this conversation. “I would rather die than give you a single hard day.” Peter remains silent, eyes searching Hobie’s face for something. Whatever he’s looking for, he either finds it or he doesn’t, because he bends down to kiss Hobie in that desperately soft way of his. Hobie’s eyes are glassy when they part and Peter doesn’t look much better off. Hobie reaches up to cup Peter’s cheeks and watches as his eyes flutter shut at his touch. Going on two years and he’s still astounded at the trust that Peter puts in him. “Maybe I’ve been caught up in my head a bit too much,” Peter says, after taking a moment to visibly gather himself. His voice is a little thick, but Hobie doesn't comment on it. He's not sure he's any better off himself. “I don’t know how to get it into that loaf of yours that I’m telling the truth,” Hobie replies. He gets a glimpse of Peter’s twist of a smile as he rolls the mask back down and continues on back to the boat. He wishes hopelessly that the moment could last longer, but Peter’s turned away from him.  “Oh, I know you’re on the square, doll. I don’t think you’ve ever lied to me.”  He still hasn’t turned around, the grey of him a sharp cut-out against the shifting newspaper texture of the docks. Trust, Hobie thinks, and fights back another wave of emotion before going to catch Peter up again.