Jul 3
Being otherkin and ficto is kinda funny to think about because yes I'm a slightly eldritch maelstrom deity who desperately wants to go home and my lovers don't exactly exist in this realm of existence. :)
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Being otherkin and ficto is kinda funny to think about because yes I'm a slightly eldritch maelstrom deity who desperately wants to go home and my lovers don't exactly exist in this realm of existence. :)
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Behold, Smol Legion
AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! I got the chance to commission @skybiie and I can definitely say it was absolutely worth it! I now have my own special little artwork of Legion to cherish, gods they're adorable.
Today marks the 2 year anniversary of my relationship with Catnap and Dogday!!
The painting I made to commemorate this milestone:
Aah! I'm so happy that we've made it to the two year mark, these two were my first F/Os, so getting here means a lot to me. My first loves, my first relationship(s), we're still going strong. A beautiful, soft and sweet bond that I wouldn't trade for anything. I'm excited to see where our love takes us next in the years to come. :)
Here are a few excerpts from the letter I wrote to them for the occasion.
"You two have been such gentle, calming presences for me..."
"Kinda funny how I found 'Mr. Right' on the first try, with you two, then the rest of the polycule came along. All of you are Mr. Right in your own sweet ways!"
"Even though the fandom no longer feels safe, I can still find comfort and safety with you. We'll always be together, and nothing will change that."
Now I'm gonna go journal, I've been a little all over the place mentally lately, original content will be inconsistent lol. Goodnight.
Something that should've clued me in on wanting to engage with the relationship side of fictosexuality is a funny memory from 2022. This happened in late October to early November of 2022. It was during my mom's replay of the Mass Effect trilogy, I saw her talking to Legion ("...There was a hole...") and they immediately became my favorite character. What was funny, was my disappointment in learning that Legion was not romanceable. I had never been that disappointed, let alone interested, in the romance options for a game before. I can be quite observant and simultaneously oblivious as hell. About a year and a half later I'd realize what my feelings were, then it took until April last year before making him an F/O lol.
Married Legion this evening đ¤đđ
(â ãģâ ââ ãģâ ) At 18:22 (6:22 pm for those who use the 12hr clock) we were wed. Celebrated with a brownie. This is just a little yippee post, I've been dealing with a lot of stress and burnout lately, but doing this little wedding has helped my mood. I might yap more later in the week about how it went in my headspace.
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Just a whole lot of rambling below that's moreso for me to get some thoughts out. TLDR; If anyone has accurate translations of Japanese sociologist Yuu Matsuura's work on fictosexuality I'd love to know. I've been really interested in seeing research from someone that recognizes our orientation as ace/arospec rather than assuming it's 'parasocial.'
A thought that I had come to mind after seeing a comment on a post on Reddit* was that I've never actually really understood human/human relationships (particularly romantic ones). On paper, I understand why people get into relationships, but in practice, there's just something about it that I don't get. I think it may be because my orientation isn't human-centered. I'm fictosexual (w/ a couple tertiary attractions), I'm exclusively attracted to fictional characters. The nature of (using entity because I'm otherkin and don't like referring to myself as 'human') entity/fictional character relationships is fundamentally different from human/human relationships. I think many people don't even realize it because of amatonormativity and the only framework we often have for relationships is human-centric. Simply, I don't have a point of reference to figure out what it is about human/human relationships that feels illogical to me. I might just be too autistic to fuckin get it lol.
*I won't say what community it is since they face a lot of harassment, brigading, etc., but they do have interesting overlaps with fictosexuality, including the stigmas faced by both groups. I'm not a member of the subreddit in question, I just lurk.
F/O Intro Post!
Finally making this after being really nervous to mention my f/os outside of Reddit. I might put this info on a carrd at a later date.
Formatting will have the f/o's name and an emoji I associate with them, then bullet points with their source, birthday, when I "officially" deemed them my f/o (relationship anniversary), and the date of important ceremonies. In case this disclaimer is needed: Everyone listed is of age, being older than me by a couple decades at minimum.
F/Os
Catnap đ
Source: Poppy Playtime
Birthday: November 20th
Relationship Anniversary: May 3rd, 2024
Commitment Ceremony: May 1st, 2026
Dogday âī¸
Source: Poppy Playtime
Birthday: July 17th
Relationship Anniversary: May 3rd, 2024
Commitment Ceremony: May 1st, 2026
Why a commitment ceremony instead of a wedding with đ&âī¸? Because they'd prefer a less formal ceremony to celebrate our love. Our love is just as strong regardless!
Shockwave â¨
Source: Transformers Prime
Birthday: August 31st
Relationship Anniversary: August 14th, 2024
Wedding Day: November 25th, 2025
Legion đ
Source: Mass Effect
Birthday: January 26th
Relationship Anniversary: April 9th, 2025
Wedding Day: February 22, 2026
Sharing Boundaries
This was the reason I was so nervous about making this post. After a bad experience disclosing these boundaries and *why* I have them, I've been afraid to talk about them. But, disclosing my boundaries is important to ensure my mental well-being, especially on my own blog.
I'm selective sharing primarily on the basis of gender because of the way my dysphoria has manifested in the past. So, feminine identifying doubles/dupes please DNI.
And that's all for this introduction of my F/Os! Hopefully as I post more often I can feel more comfortable interacting with the fictosexual community on Tumblr. I'll just do my own thing for the most part, I'm not very social.
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