#fhfy

The thing about self loathing is you want to feel like someone could love you but you cant stand being around the people you love because you suck and your presence ruins their lives and you dont deserve to be around them so if you could disguise yourself as a doctor and get kissed by someone you dont care about while they think you're someone else that might look like a solution

"Oh I dont really wear my heart on my sleeve" "Im very hard to read" do you mean "If you guys dont like this version of myself I can try to convince you that its not the real me you're getting"? Is that what you mean Fig?

no no no its fine and im normal about the fact that Fig and Sandra Lynn only were mean to each other as a self-defense method because they thought the other one hated them and that was easier than acknowledging that they're both complicated women. The differece is Fig was 14 and Sandra Lynn was a full adult.