Paired gift arts

Not all of them gosh

Thousand autumns is this beautiful story about morality and inspiring others to be better and falling in love.

Peerless is two chuckle fucks who hate each other doing their best to publicly humiliate each other and making dick jokes and saying “I’ll only save your life if you call me daddy three times” and I guess there’s also the murder mystery

A Peerless postcard I made for a Danmei stamp rally!

All it takes is two lines: “There are only two paths to choose: To die or to live.” Cui Buqu closed his eyes and calmly said, “To place my life in your hands, even if my end is death, it is something I’ll never regret.”

Cui Buqu is a man who has spent his entire 30 years of living with one foot in the grave. The world has been working against him from the very day he was born. He lives with the burden of knowing that on any given day, there is a very real chance he wouldn’t live to see the next.

And yet when faced with choice of to live or to die, he chooses to live. He looked at the cards fate had dealt him steadfastly refused to accept. He looks death in the eye every single day and tells it with gritted teeth. ‘No. I am going to live’

Cui Buqu. ‘Bu qu’, meaning ‘won’t go’. As in ‘I won’t go to my death’ He chose this name for himself to serve as a reminder that against all odds, he has stubbornly refused to die. Every breath he takes is one he has fought tooth and nail for.

For 30 years he has refused to let anyone else decide whether he would live or die. There is not a single thing more important to him. This has been made clear to us readers time and time again.

Beacause this, Cui Buqu’s line “To place my life in your hands, even if my end is death, it is something I’ll never regret,” hits like a freight train. The impact is utterly impossible to miss.

The level of trust you have to have to in someone be willing to offer yourself up so utterly completely is astronomically high. It makes for a moving sentiment in any dynamic.

For Feng Xiao and Cui Buqu, however, it’s not just a sweet moving sentiment. It. Means. Everything. Cui Buqu does not want to die. When faced with the question to live or to die, he will absolutely, resolutely choose to live every single time.

Cui Buqu is a difficult character and often exposes himself as an unreliable narrator. While Feng Xiao’s affections are quite clear, it can be difficult to discern if Cui Buqu even cares at all, let alone returns those affections.

That he not only willingly placed that choice in Feng Xiao’s hands, but also looked him in the eye, said ‘even if the choice you make is death, I won’t regret it’, and meant it communicates Cui Buqu doesn’t just care about Feng Xiao. It shows that the amount of love and trust he holds in his heart for this man is so vast that it’s near impossible to manage.