#feeling misunderstood

I used to hate romance. Until I found anime and fanfiction and they made me fall in love with romance and the concept of being in love and having friends and finding family. I finally felt seen and heard like never before. I can't find them again. But it felt good to read stories about characters saying they want to understand each other, they want to see how each other's mind works, what their burdens are? What they thinking and how to stand by their side through it all. Their problems were they wanna be more extroverted, more kinder, and they trying and one that sees you truly sees you, and acknowledges your hard work and understands you deeply was just so new to me I immediately fell in love. Characters are intuned to your little actions and can sense something wrong and ask you about it, it was beautiful. I think it hit me more because I never ever felt understood so seeing it exist felt so relieving. But now with finding the internet and other liberals/sjws I have added so many more layers to myself that makes being misunderstood hurt so much more. I wish I could go and live inside the anime and fanfictions about found family and lover that truly understands you

i am not having a good day