#feel again

Part 1

You’re a little older now, this castle’s eerie feelings have worn away and being fed on by vampires is nothing more than a chore.

This is it, you have become nothing more than a piece of meat.

Even as you stand by your open window, the cold breeze fluttering through your hair, the night birds cooing in the distance hiding in the trees; you felt nothing.

How could you feel anything? Your very being has been torn from you. The life you had before had been thrown away. Memories melted into nothing.

“Welcome to my world.”

His words were lazy and laced with a heavy sigh, he lay on your bed as if he owned it.

“You read my mind..”

“I don’t have to.” He shifted slightly probably to get a better view of you.

Pushing back your hair you finally look his way, “Monotonous.” You moved to the bed slowly, an idea slowly being created. “Do you know how to make it more interesting?”

He moves back so his arms are behind his head and it just propelled your idea even more. His blue eyes were watching you carefully as you crawled across the bed to him.

“Not going to suggest anything?” You prompt him, giving him a chance to object also as you near him.

He lay there, just observing your moves. You could tell his mind was ticking away but no actions or words were being said yet. Giving you a chance to further the plan.

Soon you found yourself straddling him. A smirk found it’s way on your face, no way would you have been able to do this a few months ago. You remember the shaking mess you once was.

After all the pain and hurt you had shut that all off. You had made this new you to help you cope. Someone who couldn’t feel, wouldn’t hurt or break. This new person was your coping mechanism.

Only recently you had compared yourself to Shu the eldest brother. Who was reserved, cold and seemingly heartless. Surprisingly he was the most comfortable to be around. He very rarely hurt you whilst feeding, but we say rarely, because when he did hurt you, he did it with a passion. And after some time thinking back on those ‘episodes’ where he did. You wonder if he did it because he liked those ‘feelings’.

Now sitting on top of him, having this new dominance, even if it lasted a few seconds; you felt something. His eyes were curious; he was probably wondering what your next actions would be. But still he was unfazed.

“Do you feel Shu?” You lean over him, knowing your cami straps were loose on your arms and your hair was tickling his skin.

He scoffed; a little smirk formed.

“I think you do, you just don’t want to..” You lean down closer to his face.

“Like how you don’t want to?” His voice was low as he replied, amused.

“I want to, that’s the problem.” You sigh sitting back up running your fingers back over his body as you do. “I want to feel good things, I’ve only ever felt the bad.”

“But you can’t always have good things..” He says and then seems to zone out after he finished, his mind somewhere else.

You take this as an opportunity, you quickly lean down to whisper in his ear, “We can make each other feel good Shu.”

He involuntary shivers, your breath in his ear must have triggered something in him. You’re surprised at feeling his hands on your hips. So you drive the plot further and slowly lick along his ear. His grip on you tightens.