#fatblr

Am... I a bad person for... Wanting to be skinny?

Listen. I know BMI is fake. I love everyone for character and I believe everyone should feel comfortable and especially confident in their body. All of that talk about how being fat is super bad is bullshit. a lot of auper fit people are fat. And even if they aren't fit they deserve love and respect! And fat people are hot! They are gorgeous! Lovely!

So then... Why ... Can I not offer the same grace myself?

Why can I not look into the mirror and just think "wow. Gorgeous!"? Why can't I wear something i love without noticing my fatness. Im not even fat i am chubby at best. But I am scared if being too heavy whenever people try to hold me. I am scared of showing skin because of my stretchmarks and fatrolls.

I give others so much love but never myself.

I've been more and more on a depressive spiral over my weight or rather my bodies chubbyness. I don't feel like I can love myself like this. And especially now with ozempic and all ghose ads trying to push the fatphobia and diet culture again--

I cant escape it. I KNOW its designed to make me hate my body. But... I dont feel like I can.... BE one of the people fighting against it. I want to escape it. I want to be free. But right now... It really truly feels like my only way is to be skinny...