samael how did u find out about your abilities? did you know what they were at first?
"Ah- it feels so long ago that I almost forgot, it's often a blur when I try to think that far back, but.. I must have been 4 or 5 sweeps old at the time, maybe? For context, I wasn't a very social child, and I seldom left the hive unless absolutely necessary. Maybe if I had been more of a people person, I would have found out sooner?
It was a steady build up that I couldn't understand at the time. When I would reach out for a friend's hand with my own, or put a hand on their shoulder, I would feel this.. intense feeling of impending doom. I was too young to know what that was, it would leave me winded and confused and lost. Words failed me as those close to me asked me what was happening amidst the panic. We were all children, we didn't know what to do, or how to handle whatever this was. I remember sleepless nights. I remember the odd looks given to the boy who lashed out and push others away just to make it stop.
It was during a particularly bad episode that a boy had reached out to pull me off the floor. There was this white hot flash of pain in my chest, and I knew then that something was very, very wrong.
I couldn't scream. I gasped for air. I clawed at where this sensation was coming from and I could swear I could feel something warm and wet cover the palms of my hands. It couldn't have been more than a minute, but every moment that passed me by felt like the burst in my chest was multiplying. I blacked out from the pain.
Not a week later I learned that that boy had died in the crossfire of a shootout down the main road. His chest had been littered with bullet holes."