its so weird learning everything, how to cook, how to care for the adults around you, how to clean, and never being taught the things you need for YOU

oh my god my visiojn is getting fuckked up while im typing this im actuallly freaking the fuck out!!!!!!!!!!!!

and thats when we asked for crutches, had a whole presentation on mobility aids, their importance, and various conditions that can cause a need for them, and at the end we asked the big question

we were going to pay the hundreds of dollars for good quality ones, we said we would avoid using them at church because my mother would see me as an embarrassment, we offered everything just to get help

and she laughed in our face

now, we live with the pain, nausea, dizziness, fatigue, and now very new issues all without help from the people in our family

i hate waking up and seeing that fucker in my doorway i know what hes doing and i hate it

hey who cursed this wretched life of mine