#fanmixes

I Think I’m In Love- Kat Dahlia (I didn't think it could be true Let alone that it would be you)

Gap Tooth Smile by Djo (It's her hair, her style But I fell in love with her gap tooth smile)

Girl Crush by Self Esteem (Been thinking 'bout you constantly But I'm not a holiday It's up to you to make the move)

nice pup by chloe moriondo (And I'll still curl up at your feet and Try to give you everything you need and I'll be a nice pup if that's how you want me)

Straight by Destrends (You've got a hold on me, mate I can't think straight)

Sorry Bro (I Love You) by Dorian Electra (I know, I know we always tussle But maybe it's because I love you)

Gap Tooth (On My Mind) by Best Ex (Now all I see is the gap between your teeth The way you’d kiss me in the morning It plays on repeat)

Crushcrushcrush by Paramore (If you wanna play it like a game Well, come on, come on, let's play)

Desperate But Not Serious by Adam Ant (If I were kind and adoring How would that be? Very boring)

Moonlite by Nicole Dollanganger (You were my girl, my thing, my pet To do anything I wanted with)

Pretty Gay! By Baybe (Now I wanna give 'em something they can talk about (Talk about) Heard that I'm too mean, but it's the thought that counts)

Just a Game by Birdy (There comes you, To take me in your arms Is it just a game? I don't know)

Give Great Thanks by Dorian Electra (Put me in a cage I shall not complain I will give great thanks to you)

Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) by Florence + the Machine (This is a gift, it comes with a price Who is the lamb and who is the knife?)

Lonely is the Muse by Halsey (And I mined a couple diamonds From the stories in my head But I'm reduced to just a body Here in someone else's bed)

Come to Me by Björk (So don't make me say it It would burst the bubble Break the charm)

Government Hooker by Lady Gaga (I can be anything, I'll be your everything Just touch me, baby, I don't wanna be sad)

Hopelessly Addicted by The Corrs (And if yesterday I heard Myself saying these words I would swear it was a lie)

Puppet by Dorian Electra (Cut my strings but please, don't ever set me free No, I won't let go, I give you full control)

Adagio For Strings (ft. Maiday) by BASTILLE (Oh, I don't know, what can I do? What else can I say, it's up to you) [Note: The song between Puppet & Control should be Adagio For Strings (Ft. Maiday) by BASTILLE. Since Spotify doesn't have this track, I've used instead What Is Love by Haddaway, which is the main song covered and interpolated in BASTILLE's song. If you're a Spotify user, check out this song elsewhere for the true experience!]

Control by Halsey (God damn right, you should be scared of me Who is in control?)

Chains by Robots in Disguise (Is it 'cause I'm you And you're me And we're chained Linked to each other with chains)

Sit/Stay by Poppy (Do what you've been, what you've been told Sit, stay, lie down Sit, stay, lie down)

For Your Entertainment by Adam Lambert (Baby, I'm in control Take the pain, take the pleasure I'm the master of both)

Apollo by Chrissy Chlapecka (But you came, showed your light And I thought I could make it mine)

It’s Your Move by Diana Ross (I don't understand it 'cause you won't say yes But you don't say no)

The Writer by Ellie Goulding (Why don't you be the artist And make me out of clay? Why don't you be the writer And decide the words I say?)

White Noise by PVRIS (It's hard to be what you need through a static screen)

Ponyboy by SOPHIE (Crack down the whip Make the pony bite the bit Spit on my face Put the pony in his place)

Your Wish Is My Command by Kim Petras (Your wish is my command Baby, I can do it, baby I can do it)

wish you were gay by Billie Eillish (I laugh along like nothing's wrong, four days has never felt so long If three's a crowd and two was us, one slipped away)

Angel Of My Dreams by JADE (When the camera flashy, I act so happy I'm in heaven when you're lookin' at me)

Cyber Sex by Doja Cat (I wanna get freaky on camera I love when we get freaky on camera)

Nothing Looks the Same In the Light by Wham! (For when you wake and look at me You never know, you just might see Another boy who crept into your room)

Say It Right by Nelly Furtado (No, you don't mean nothin' at all to me But you got what it takes to set me free Oh, you could mean everything to me)

Pang by Caroline Polachek (There's a look in your eyes when you're hungry for me (Tell me what you're afraid of) It's a beautiful knife cutting right where the fear should be)

Lick It Like a Kitten by Mars Argo (Thought it was innocent Just thought you could handle it But now you're crawling on the floor Are you sure you want me to)

Craving (I Only Want What I Can’t Have) by t.A.T.u. (And consequences in the future And feeling is now And now I can't feel the future But I can be there for you now)

Using You by Mars Argo (I was afraid to put myself on the line for a boy 'Til he put me in my place and showed me how to enjoy myself)

Beg For You (feat. Rina Sawayama) (You know I need you to stay Don't make me beg for you 'cause I'll beg for you)

Fifteen Minutes by Mike Krol

Perfect (Exceeder) by Cowboy Hunters

BOOGIE by Brockhampton

Gas Pedal by Babe Heaven

I Got Heaven by Mannequin Pussy

Ugly Cherries by PWR BTTM

Head Like A Hole by Nine Inch Nails

GIRLS by The Dare

Smack My Bitch Up by The Prodigy

Me And The Girls by Amyl and the Sniffers

Give It To Me by The Northern Boys

Loud Bark by Mannequin Pussy

Sofia Coppola by Susannah Joffe

Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge

Psychic Wound by King Woman

Pepper by The Butthole Surfers

I Wish I Was A Riot Grrl by Destructo Disk

Fuck The Pain Away by Peaches

They/Them/Theirs by Worriers

Maggot by Slutever

Queer by Garbage

Destroyed by Hippie Powers by Car Seat Headrest

Jason by BONNIE PARKER

Detachable Penis by King Missile

Miserable America by Kevin Abstract

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note: I'm still using they/them Tozer as my chew toy so I may continue to rearrange the order of these songs or may add more as I continue messing with the playlist.

second note: the flag behind Tozer on the playlist picture is the non-binary transfemme flag

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Cig wrote about Tozer possibly being a firefighter or paramedic in their fic and I wrote Tozer being a corps member in my fic, wherein both of these Tozers are non-binary somewhat/somehow. It's so perfect, because when I envision non-binary Tozer I imagine them a lot like (but not exactly like) my first partner that I had.

I met them in the corps and they had to hide their queerness because of the nature of working in the corps. They worked as a firefighter and then later as a paramedic. My partner also really liked 15 Minutes by Mike Krol and BOOGIE by Brockhampton so I put them in the playlist as homage.

I imagine Sol as the kind of person who would have to hide their queerness while working in the Marines or Navy, or whatever institution that they had to work in. I knew a lot of people in the corps who were closeted and didn't come out until they left. And maybe it's because they didn't realize or maybe it was because they were compelled to stay in the closet. I was one of them.

Now, I imagine that Sol's life is much better. They are no longer worried to tears about being outed and can live happily and out of the closet. They have queer friends. They do their nails and have all sorts of clothes to wear. Sometimes they let their beard grow out, sometimes they are clean shaven. They like perfumes that are usually marketed to women. Boots that are usually marketed to men. Clothes that are marketed to women. They like working on cars and going to the gym and going to petting zoos and dancing at clubs and kissing all sorts of people. They have an appointment set up to go on estrogen that they're scared and excited about. The people that they were the most scared to come out to are their biggest supporters.