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any answer to this will have a scene from 2x03 humpty dumpty on it for aforementioned obvious reasons !! i loveee it as an episode for cuddy but i'm gonna pick specifically the ending scene for a Moment i rotate in my head 24/7 :) it's so poignant and i think especially contrasted with the cold open (where cuddy tells alfredo that she has a dinner party) it feels so lonely. quintessential cuddy To Me.

rn i've also been thinking about s3 a LOT because mybuddy liv just finished it !! i'll name finding judas because. well it's finding judas. insane insane cuddymoment In There. but i want to actually highlight the very start of s3 for a change… i do really enjoy the mini-arc (can you even call it that? it's across two episodes) of wilson & cuddy lying to house about him curing the patient with addison's, to no ones surprise primarily for what it does for cuddy <3 i love it when she's absolutely tearing herself to bits with Guilt okay that's my favourite thing in the world

i want to talk about something from s5 but it's unbearably hard to pick just one thing… so many scenes that i'm constantly microwaving !! so much cuddy content !! but gun to my head i'm choosing from 5×11 joy to the world :)) cheating a little bit because i obviously wanna mention cuddy finding rachel in the abandoned house which is a Moment for sure, but what i really really want to focus on is her conversation with natalie, the patient… i rotate it constantly in my mind palace it's very very important to me <3

Cuddy: See, that’s not a good answer. Remember when you asked me if I had any kids? I don’t. I don’t know, maybe it has nothing to do with it, but I was good at school, good at work, lousy at life. I screwed up every relationship I ever had. I thought ‘why would I want to bring a child into this?’ But then I got older and… [long pause] how you feel now will pass. Don’t let it screw up your whole life.

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 idk man it makes me Feel Things okay !!! crazy crazy CuddyMoment !!

and FINALLY. my last Primo cuddymoment for today is from 7×11 family practise. yeah it IS the scene where arlene tells cuddy she likes julia more than her. who could have guessed. cuddy's relationship with her mother is one that i think about ALL OF THE TIME because. at the end of the day that's the Root of it all yk. anyway i think they should have had one hundred million more episodes about cuddy & her family actually. definitely my favourite part of s7 :)

4×13 ☾ NO MORE MR NICE GUY

one of my favourite things about their dynamic, which hopefully is displayed a little through my picks here, is the constant push and pull between house & cuddy in so many scenes, how they each take turns pursuing or deflecting (very clearly laid out in known unknowns where house states his interest in cuddy and she flees the room). this scene to me is once again an example of that - after house finishes his spiel, cuddy immediately changes the subject. it's such an interesting scene to me in ways i can't really word, but i will take a stab at it. a really important element to their relationship imo is this sense of knowing/understanding the other person - most prominently, cuddy employs house and approves his methods because she understands them, which i think is an overlooked/misunderstood aspect of the way they work. in this scene it reads to me that through the performance review house is trying to almost remind cuddy of how much he gets her, however coarsely (obviously the context is important for this, coming after cuddy writes him a rather impersonal performance review) - a lot of it is mocking, yes, but also brutally true ("what you want, you run away from, what you need, you don't have a clue" - cuddy thesis. to me). and then we get the smallest hint of tenderness with "what you've accomplished, makes you proud… but you're still miserable", as well as a reversed callback to season one. the amount of little callbacks like this with huddy makes me so giddy i swear. they remember the most minute details about each other !! it's so over man idk.

2×23 ☾ WHO'S YOUR DADDY?

fun sexy scene in an overall ehhh episode lmao. this one sticks out to me in particular because it was i think the first time i really GOT IT yk. i locked the fuck in on cuddy from i think 2×03 humpty dumpty on my first watch? (seems a long time but. i watched season 1 in a day) but THIS is when i was like. ohhhh huddy is going to be an issue for me. i seriously cannot watch this without giggling and kicking my feet i hate them and i wish this plotpoint was extended because what do you mean it's only for one episode !! alas. i like how drawn-out and insanely tension-filled this scene is, and i like to think about house's… odd feelings surrounding cuddy's potential motherhood because it's a running thing and there's a lot to chew on there imo. did i mention it's really hot

5×17 ☾ THE SOCIAL CONTRACT

hi hello scene of all time here. to me it's key to stress that any aspect of huddy's relationship is unusual, it's out of the ordinary - the way their professional relationship functions, their weird ass courting rituals - which is SO important for them both as characters, esp cuddy who clearly wants to be normal and do what's expected of her, you know? there's so many scenes, including this one, where surface-level it's strange and maybe insulting but actually quite touching if you think about it - house fashions a situation where the goal is for cuddy to be sexually harrassed, yes, but his intention is to convolutedly compliment her because she doesn't take anything he says regarding that seriously? that's romance baby. and again, cuddy immediately understands where he's coming from on this (though pretending to be exasperated and calling him ridiculous because god forbid they reciprocate interest) and is flattered !! her smile as the elevator closes !! i could die she's so adorable she's three seconds old.

3×14 ☾ INSENSITIVE