#false love

प्रस्तावना प्यार एक ऐसा भावनात्मक अनुभव है, जो मानव जीवन के कई पहलुओं को प्रभावित करता है। यह एक जटिल भावना है, जो न केवल शारीरिक आकर्षण बल्कि गहरी आत्मीयता और सामंजस्य को भी समाहित करता है। असली प्यार एक सकारात्मक अनुभव प्रदान करता है, जिसमें विश्वास, समर्थन और आपसी सम्मान का समावेश होता है। यह दो लोगों के बीच मजबूत बंधन बनाने में सहायक होता है और जीवन में खुशियों का संचार करता है। इससे…

I’m free, it happened again, someone far away wanted to draw me in. I want someone here, who I can feel and love and cut and burn… mark and claim. I always got drawn in anyway, to love that’s far away. I know, it’s kinda stupid, I know what I want, I tell people what I want, I try to run away but my loneliness draws me in. Beckons me to fall into the same bad habits as always. I’ve fallen for this over and over, feeling guilty and lost every time even though I told them what I wanted… I got attached, they become my fp, I can’t escape for weeks until I’m finally able to break it off…

this time though, I felt myself being drawn in, it was a lot, I fought it though. I told myself finally “this isn’t what we need or want” and pulled away, I don’t need love from a million miles away, I need love right here. I finally freed myself from this cycle, I’m so proud… finally… finally finally.

- ”Love” -

I thought I had known love

I thought about it every night

It consumed my brain and killed the monsters

It was a protector like a knight.

It held away the darkness like a first responder

I had grown attached to the love like it was air

Needing it with me wherever i was

I consumed it until i had none to spare

But the knight in metal

Was a demon in leather

Holding me back with a tether.

The truth was instead of midas with a golden touch

Stubborn as they come, was he

Determined to win me,

A trophy to put on a shelf

He only cared about himself.

I spoke, he didn't listen,

Cursed with the roar of a kitten

He's set in his own way,

I hardly keep the flood at bay.