the dragonâs lost mind.
Fafnir is a dragon of extreme opinions, especially due to his draconic instincts being so prevalent in how he thinks. He either has zero concern for something and often outright hates it, or he claims it as âhisâ. There is no in-between state here- most things Fafnir even somewhat likes will become treasured parts of his hoard, because there is no in-between for him on the value of things or people between 0 and 100. Likewise, there is no in-between for -100 and 0.
The problem with this, beyond the rather obvious problem of having such extremes as oneâs only option, is that Fafnir, despite his belief, can change his opinion. He rarely acknowledges this, and in his mind his opinions are almost completely static, but they actually change rather often.
This doesnât sound like a problem⌠except for the fact that Fafnir is, genuinely, not capable of realizing he can change his opinion or that his opinions do change without extensive thought and concentration, due to said draconic instincts.
Most of the time, when Fafnir changes his mind on something, it becomes a âretroactiveâ change. Something cannot go from âhoardâ to ânot-hoardâ, for example, so it must have always been ânot-hoardâ. Someone he considered eating and later liked a bit cannot just have been âliked a bitâ or up for the eating debate, so it becomes âwell I ALWAYS treasured them as hoardâ even though he very much did not at a certain time.
Of course, he cannot actually just magically go back in time to have changed his mind. Itâs a subconscious decision that he has to dedicate actual energy to. If he hasnât known someone for long, this isnât too hard. Itâs very easy for Fafnirâs brain to make such changes. The issue tends to come up when, slowly, someone or something has grown on him. Or when someone/thing has just passed the threshold of him noticing his opinion has changed.
One thing to keep in mind with Fafnir is that, before anything else, before even being a person, he is a dragon. His instincts and how he consciously thinks are all but one and the same, and relegating his instincts to being something that is easily overcome is a very inaccurate look at him. He does not think like a human will. He never will think like a human will. There are many similarities, but he is a dragon before anything else.
One thing to keep in mind as well, almost as important as the last, is that Fafnir was not always a dragon. He himself will pretend that this is how he always thought, but itâs just not so. Fafnir has had this lens of thinking slapped onto his entire life, even before he was affected by Andvaranautâs curse, before he changed so thoroughly. But this thinking has, again, been applied âretroactivelyâ, but not actually.
Because Fafnirâs own past behavior now makes no sense to him as he is now.
His prior thoughts are alien. His past self is an entirely different person.
Fafnir can no longer access the kind of thinking he had prior to this curse. He cannot imagine the opinions or thoughts he used to have before truly becoming a cursed dragon.
While he would never admit it, this is one of the very few things, besides death, that he fears.
Because didnât Fafnir, before becoming a dragon, die too, when he did become a dragon?
