#extremely so

as a majority of you know, i'm part of a server that's been trying to suss me out for a while. recently, i've been invited by some people in there to bear witness to a myriad of... fandom conflicts, and to understand the true nature of an ongoing matter that's been affecting a number of individuals. i recognize that my platform in this community is bare-bones, at best. i do not have the influence nor the fanbase to make waves to the degree that others can. but i have a platform nonetheless, a voice, and so i am compelled to use it. i love this community. at least, what i've seen of it. i can't bear to watch misinformation and clear bias from unfair power dynamic tear apart what is meant to be a close knit and welcoming fandom. i firmly believe that all parties involved are culpable to a degree, but there is a clear side that i don't believe anyone with common sense should be taking.

so, all that being said, i want to make this very clear: don't take everything you see, especially without solid proof, as fact. when someone comes online and pretends their hurtful, problematic actions are arbitrary and can be swept under the rug because of their clout, popularity, mental state, or any other defining factors that don't negate the harm they have caused - make sure you have listened to all sides of the story before you speak out in defense of them.

some of you may recognize the specific situation i'm speaking about right now. some of you may even have your hackles raised, ready to jump me for speaking out about this against your supposed 'people's princess'. i want you to know that i stand behind every syllable of what i am saying, and the evidence i have been shown is undeniable. if you see it too - and chances are, you will - you won't be able to deny it either. i know where i stand here. i do not condone any of the behaviors exhibited by this person, nor do i support those who try to defend them after knowing what they have done.

"but TK, what does that have to do with you stepping away from roleplaying?" the person in question, who i won't mention by name until the full situation has been aired out publicly, has sent me asks. multiple. long ones. creepy, parasocial ones. do not misread me: i'm more than happy to be interacting with people who enjoy nulla and his character as much as i do, and i delight in seeing people who are passionate about their love for nulla. however, i recognized this person immediately, and the content of their asks alongside the nature of their behavior that i was already aware of made me extremely uncomfortable. i do not have any desire or business interacting with this person or anyone who is aware of the gravity of their actions and condones them anyway. i refuse to use nulla as a conduit to ease their guilty conscience and make them feel better about receiving the consequences of their actions, for once. and so, due to the volume of asks i've received from them and the looming threat that i may receive more (or, god forbid, that some of my current asks are from them), i am taking a break from roleplay for now: at least, until this situation has been publicized.

and, because i know that this person is somewhat likely to see this, let me say my piece upfront so there's absolutely no mistake about how i feel about you interacting with me, especially to the extent that you have: i will not sit here and pretend like i don't recognize you, or that i don't know the things you have done to others in this community. i do not care who you are or how many spineless sheep enable you. you, very simply, abhor me. no matter your age or your circumstances, your actions and how you have been behaving without a single modicum of remorse is vile and disgusting. i want nothing to do with you and i refuse to associate myself or this blog's nulla portrayal with you. i will not be another person to enable you, and neither will my roleplay. you can sob and post and wail about how attacked and hurt you feel from finally being forced to confront the consequences of your actions, but sitting behind your keyboard and crying about how you're being victimized by the recipients of your bigotry does not make you the victim, nor does it make you in the right. in fact, until you actually mature and learn from the consequences of your actions (which i highly doubt you will, given your track record), i am in unwavering support of having you blacklisted from this community entirely. you have continuously proven yourself to be a blemish and a toxin in this fandom, and it would please me greatly to be rid of your downright repugnant behavior. do not speak to me, send me asks, or even think to mention me in your little dossier of victim blaming, self-sympathizing, and purposeful exclusion of information. if you or any of your little lackeys send me anything or put out any of my or anyone else's information publicly, it will be documented and action will be taken. legal action, if i have to. i know your history. i know exactly who you are and what you have done. there is stone cold evidence against you on file, and spreading misinformation to play the victim and gain sympathy that you do not deserve will result in the release of all of it. publicly.

tl;dr: don't take everything you see, especially without solid proof, as fact.

there are individuals given positions of power in this fandom, who are in support of some disgusting behavior that has been occurring in broad daylight - the details of which will be publicized soon.

keep an eye out and make sure you're taking every statement you see on the internet, especially without hard proof to support them, with a grain of salt.