#ex loves

I know you still search for me in the crowds I'm in your contacts, easy to be found But just remember how things turned out It was you after all who turned me down And I'm so glad you did Looks like I managed to dodge a bullet Just thinking about it, you're so full of it And if you ask me, I wouldn't forget How it's easy for you to be so insensitive I'm not the one for you to checking on Every time you feel that temptation You can keep your feels if you want Just know, for you, I won't be the one.

I still think about you everyday and it still hurts to say your name. I cringe everytime I see a car like yours, and hear a song that I know you know. I miss coming home to you everyday, and how you took my breath away. You took away all hope I had by leaving me for another one. And now I fear that im scarred for life. While you move on and I push and fight. These feelings that I know I have because you damaged me beyond repair.

I never know how to feel after waking up from a dream about my past. Part of me smiles at the memory and another part of me hurts at the thought of what was lost.

Listening to Rome's Seasons and it reminds me of all of my past loves. I still love the memories we shared. Either one could have worked out but I have deep seeded issues with trust. Each one promising me they were honest and they all lied. Except Troy, I never gave him the chance to lie to me. Maybe I was afraid he would and it would hurt me. Or maybe I was afraid he would be honest and I'm the liar. I lost something and never will know what could have happen. I love him and I can't do anything but have him in my memories and possibly the one that I released. I hope he finds the one he is looking for and never let her  go. I want him to be happy forever with someone even if it isn't me. He won't have as much fun as with me but she will have to do. lol.