#entry 53

Day 157, and I’m 32 feet and 3 inches tall. Yesterday I took over a new farm. They had quite a large one, and a lot of people, so I didn’t have to feel too bad when I crushed one of them under my giant ass and ate another one to establish my dominance. Now they’re working nice and hard for me, which is good.

I’m having one of them record this, since I left Evan at the first farm. Say hello!

*a quiet, nervous voice* H-h-hel-hello.

(OC: Date [09-09-2016] Day[Friday])

Dear diary…

Today I was able to find Aelathdrin. As I expected the night before, she did not remember much. So I reminded her how she acted and how disappointed I was with what she did whilst intoxicated. I then thought that some form of punishment needed to be implemented. As it is my duty now after all. I remembered back to the punishment she was issued for the game she took part in. I remember her not making as much a fool of herself as she only took part in the main game but took no action. I would have just given a verbal warning but I remember her last punishment involving physical work. This lead to the decision that she would clean her regiments weapons and armor for the next week also. I also said I didn’t want to see her drinking until I trusted her to do so more appropriately. Rassos also seemed to take interest in the punishment by asking what it would be.

She didn’t seem to take the news of what she did well. It is understandable her she would not be happy with her actions. I would also not be happy if I did what she did. But she was too hard on herself. She seemed to thing she had become a disgrace. This is not an observation I would make of her as her pride in our people clearly shows and she would never willingly bring shame to us. I assured her she was fine. I know what a disgrace looks like and she isn’t one.

I departed for a while and returned to what looked like a racial spat between Rassos and Aelathdrin. I didn’t break it up at first to let them settle their issued but it got to a point where I had to. It got to a point where their bickering started to cause me offense. Also Aelathdrin had a few choice words I would not utter myself in front of a forsaken. I am unsure if they truly hate each other, or if it is just some strange way of them talking. But things they say to each other must stay like that. I found some of what Rassos said insulting and offensive. But I don’t allow mere insults to lower me to a level of back and forward name calling.  

After this more people arrived and a social talk occurred. Rassos then left for his own business. Shortly after, due to the topic of discussion, the others wanted to follow him as some sort of prank. I didn’t understand and thought it was stupid. I only went along to make sure nothing stupid happened. After that little… incident? We all went into one of the bars. We spoke for a while before the Magister walked in and took Ara’ni away to show her something. Shortly after we were all called to their location. The building they were in almost reminded me of the spire back home. But less grand.

Once inside in the library. It seemed to be a session regarding Aelathdrin’s actions last night. Something the Magister wanted to discuss. I pointed out that I had already issued punishment because I did not want to see her punished further, however it seems that I was in the wrong for making the punishments to begin with. The Magister made clear that even if I disagreed with him taking away the punishment, he didn’t care. This makes sense. He outranks me and his word supersedes mine. He also has better judgment than me. He is the better leader. It is why I am following his guidance. If he cared for my opinion he would ask. That is the way of things on duty.

I was made to apologize, which I would happily do. Even though at first I was struggling to see why I was wrong in my action. It seemed like the sensible thing to do at the time, so I did it. I did feel quite some confusion. But the Magister said I needed to apologize for thinking strait to the point instead of looking around first. With that in mind, it started to make more sense why I was in the wrong. And I understood why the Magister saw fit for me to apologize. I am happy I did without question when asked to and I am glad I was reluctant to accept her apology for me having to apologize.

I only saw what she did and jumped to a conclusion based on that without looking at other factors. For example, the vial she took. The one Ara’ni pranked her with saying it would help with the drunkenness, but once she had drank it said it was troll seamen. That didn’t help her condition. And she was pressured into drinking it. She was also pressured into her stupid stunts by Grualarr. And I didn’t say anything to him to make him stop. Which is unfair as he influenced her whilst she was intoxicated.

I feel more sympathy for her now… If I had thought of these things before I would have lessened the punishment. Or maybe not even issued it. She seemed to punish herself enough for it.

I discussed with the shade today about our plans once we reached highmountain. The plan she gave was awful. So I hopefully did my job correct and told her as such. She proposed that we climb to the top of the mountain once we arrive. When I asked her why she said to see the nice view. To me, even as a novice leader, this is an awful plan and terrible reason to justify it. I explained how it would be a huge waste of resources and man power to do something so trivial. There is a war going on and we are leaving to unknown lands to fight an unknown enemy. Tiring the warband for a –nice view- is an awful idea.

There was a time where it was just me and Aelathdrin in the inn. I had treated her to a drink… I know. A strange apology given recent events but in seeing how she reacted, I trust her to have more control. Plus there is nobody here to pressure her into stupid things. Or prank her. I showed her silvermoon port which is a personal favorite of mine and she seemed to like it. I also apologized to her again. Now that I fully understand what I am apologizing for I can give her one that I know I mean. She understands why I did what I did but at the same time it was unfair of me to do what I did.

We had a pleasant chat before we both departed to rest. For some reason I couldn’t help but think about the Sylvarys. It might have been the earlier discussion I had with Aelathdrin that lead my mind to this. I lay here now thinking of that moment we shared outside the base in Azshara. How he said he would take my hand when he next saw me and smile.  I wonder if his duties has made him unable to share this moment yet. No matter. We will both not die until that day comes. We said this on the docks before we departed for Dalaran. But enough writing. I must rest. It seems I have a lot of reading tomorrow.

Yours faithfully

Forgotten MH Fact #216: 

Is there a good way to answer a negative yes or no questions like this one: "Don't you want to come?"

Whether you say yes or no, the answer is, annoyingly enough, still completely unclear. (Yes, you don't want to come? Yes, you do want to come?) This has always driven me nuts.

In German, you can respond with 'doch' as a clear, simple way to say, "Yes, I don't want to come."

I wish English had some type of doch-ish terminology like this. I wonder if a doch-ish word existed in Middle or Old English? If so, when did it drop out of existence, and why did it drop out of existence?

Forgotten MH Fact #46: (submitted by bioshockproxy)