#entry 28

I haven’t been as strong as I’d like.

FFxivWrite 2021 Prompt #28: Bow When her nights were sleepless--and they often were--X’unmei would grab her bow and a quiver of arrows, and quietly slip away to where in the daylight hours, the Twin Adders and Wood Wailers would train. It was not only the men and women in uniform she sought to avoid with her nocturnal sneaking, but her own tribe. She was clever enough to know that if the Lynx tribe was aware of the full extent of her skill as a markswoman, they would ride her even harder about how she need help out with hunting and security “for the sake of the tribe.” It was always for the sake of the tribe, and never for the individuals within it. It was often difficult to see by light of moon and stars, but that was hardly an obstacle for Mei. She nocked her arrow, opposite hand holding her bow steady as she drew her elbow back, pulling the arrow taut against the string and taking aim. She squinted through the shadows at the target, settling into her posture and stilling her breath. Effortlessly, her fingers slipped from the string and sent the arrow flying through the crisp night air. With a soft thud, its sharp tip embedded into the very center of the practice target; bullseye. @which-can-eternal-lie​

Knew I shouldn’t have eaten breakfast. Had a stomach ache for a while. I don’t feel well. Is this despair or emptiness, I don’t know. Sorry.

I hate how I want to be alone/ at least not talk when I don't want to even for just a day or two but that is luxury I cannot afford. I BADLY NEED TIME TO BE ALONE PLEASE.

I don’t know how I really feel. I took off work and then was like maybe I shouldn’t have. I slept. I cried. I sat here. Idk.

I can easily pick up Evan, but due to how much bigger I am, we have to do a bit of awkward moving around to make sure I don’t run him over. I’m really tempted to go visit Jessie again, just to scare her.