I love how a bladder that’s being pushed to its limit takes on a life and a mind of its own. It’s like all the water in me has become self-aware, and it’s searching around for a way out and getting angry and trying to punish me.
It’s water—the thing that digs canyons out of solid rock. Why do I think I can control something like that with my pathetic little muscles? It’s so much more powerful than my body, it’s almost demonic. Having a bladder this full is like being possessed. I’m shuddering and flailing around uncontrollably. I’m whining and grunting. I’m out of my mind. All because there’s a heavy balloon of water inside me that doesn’t want to be there.

















