#emptying thoughts

but honestly? taking in consideration the fact that he serves for SAS, is one of the reasons he actually went (or still going) to therapy, taking medication etc for whatever he needs to be able to continue to serve

personally I think Ghost is on top of his mental and physical health so he can continue serving, and even though he has his traumas etc (that we don't know much of because his backstory in the reboot is still not revealed) he acts like a normal person just a bit more closed off

It’s like I’ve taught myself to fear silence, to fear time without distraction. It’s so hard to live with yourself when just sitting there with your own thoughts feels like torture. I feel everything and nothing, i’m numb, I’m impulsive and confusing and I dont understand myself, I don’t think I ever will.

Ive spent so long trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I always knew something was off, something but I could never figure out what and after all this time all i’ve gotten were diagnosis and more and more medication because apperently drugs are the only way to regulate how I feel. I don’t really know what I was expecting when I asked for help I try not to expect much anymore because it always leads to disappointment in the end.

Being in love with you is a sorrowfull dream that I love to watch every single day

It cut my heart into peices

Yet i never forget to love you in silence

Every night i dream of being your love of life

Even though you don't even think of me

Dear, didn't t you ever loved me?

Maybe don't but still you loved the thing "being loved by me" oh, maybe it is just "being loved" and by me was silent

Yet i never regret about being in love with you, falling for you every day even though you'll never be mine

Because you really need someone's love

You really craved to be loved

To be seen

To be cared

To listen to your words

To see your childishness

To see your values

To be loved

Yes like everyone you really craved

To be admired by someone

To be adored by someone

To be loved by someone

You really did dear, I'm sure!

Yes so all for that you kept me with you

To get all of it as your wish

Yet  dear how could you forget

I'am just a girl"

With dreams

Like you , dear

With a dream

there is so much to be cherished about every athlete’s story and unique performance, not just the ones that are getting all the media attention. Alysa Liu is extremely talented and such a joy to watch, but she is far from all that should be appreciated about the 2026 Winter Olympic figure skating group as a whole. another person i’d like to mention is Ilia Malinin, who was so hyped up by the media to the point at which he felt genuinely overwhelmed by such a high expectation. there are a plethora of lovable athletes with stellar capabilities, so let’s appreciate them, as well!