#emotionallydraining

86 more days. 

I can't stay sober but I'm staying clean. A drink or two, some grass, music, and a beautiful night out driving or chilling around a fire would be perfect. I miss just living life and feeling limitless. I'm not going to say my life's great but it's definitely getter better. We can do it.

If you’re in to good vibes, positive energy, focused thoughts, burning incense, chanting, or prayers... I could use a few if you can spare them. During my annual check up last week, I had some lab work done and my doctor wants to run more tests. He said that it’s probably nothing, but he just wants to make sure. Considering that part of the test is looking for the cancer that took my mom, as you might imagine I’m a little nervous. When it comes to medical things, my family has a terrible track record. I don’t know when the CT scan is going to be yet, so the waiting is kind of getting to me. Ironically, the second picture was my fortune cookie last night. #Rude Anyway, I appreciate any vibes you’re willing to give. Thanks for your time. Much love, everybody! Take care! 💙💙💙 #health #medical #emotionallydraining #HeredityHasADownSide #LifeIsHard #MyPlateIsAlreadyFull #Stress #FortuneCookiesAreLittleBitchesSometimes #HopefullyItIsNothing #hashtag https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs-gL1jFHxL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gr0ekhs9daty

Good for thought!!!! It really does take a lot of emotional strength to smile and pretend to be happy like shit ughhh life!!!! #facts #truth #queenpaige👸🏼 #foodforthought #emotionallydraining #fakingittomakeit