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d m t ——> lizard realm

May you wouldn't believe the thing that I confronted just a couple of minutes ago.

... and at the end, blocked.

You know I'm not really these kind of girls who flares out when this typical situation happens, especially if you are getting a goddamn proposal from your ex-boyfriend.

Let's make it a bit clear.

Damian's old body, texted me exactly twenty minutes ago, asking how I am, then waits for his respond and being ignored by me.

Well, the funny part of it, is.. I got a message from my ex-assistant today too. What a fucking coincidence, isn't it?

It's like whole world, all the mans I knew before is keeping sent to me by a Power which is above me.

God, is that you?

If it is you, then stop.

I won't eat it.

I think I felt good after a long time. After I fucked the hell out of him, and tell him that he is unstable, -making the antecedent equal- I might been a little bit cruel, but not as much as he were to me before. Because do you know what..

I'm not that little girl any more. To be fooled. Again and again.

'Oh, my prince, are you getting back to me? Do you wanna be my Damian again?'

'I'm not a sex addicter, I wanna marry you, make you not a slave but my wife..'

Ah, I fuck your lie and ugly big plus dumb eyes.

So yeah, I wasn't that bait this time, and then he blocked, BOOM!

What a surprise.

What a surprising man, isn't he?

Doing me make so good predictions about what his next step is!

At the end, I was the winner, that's totally okay but the real deal is, why now?

Why is it the exact date he choose to text me and dumb me up since days, telling me we will meet but then cancels everything! On the other end, my old assistant were trying to fucking catch up with me and have a chitchat.

I fuck the way you guys lie.

It's like someone is playing with my life, and I am the main actor of it. Leads me as he wants, plays with me, dress and undresses me up.

Who the fuck is this person does dare do it?

You know.. it is the term called 'impossible', when it comes to my real life relationship. I adopted myself to Damian Sainy, the man inside of me, my second soul, first and the last person I will give my breathe for.. I will never going to get out my promise, ever. Whether the most handsome man alive in the world, proposes me and tells me he loves me badly, neither we find Damian's last body.

Which we really do not intending to.

I was just surprised, having him here, trying to fool me from a social media and proposing just with a message.. (?)

See! I don't even know which punctuation mark shall I put to that point.

I must admit, it drove me crazy for a moment, then it passed by the moment that I hugged Bugs Bunny. Damon made me a latte -as he knows me the best, latte heals everything- and I stopped shaking. Especially ended, to have the extensive anger inside of my veins.

Did I believe just for a second?

Yes.

I'm sorry Damon.

He is confused, reading this novel at the same I do write.. but I had to make this confession.. that I'm a fool.

No, you're not.

The best man ever said..

Maybe I wasn't, but I was going to be fooled by believing him. If I would have accepted to meet and all the 'lie marriage' stuff, it is not too hard to guess out what would have happen.. he'd use me all my life as his sex slave, consider that I'm his wife, but only take cares of me because he wants to destroy the body I have.

I think the little paragraph you just read is just the most essence summary of life.

I'm honestly glad this shit happened now. So I could end the fear in me, when am I going to shake to fear, anger to death again?

It was that moment I went to Bonnie's room first -my bunny- and hugged her, tried to avoid myself from his thoughts, next moment back then Damon caught my chin, caressing it slowly, kissing my lips in a row for a while.

I was okay. I learnt what latte is working for! Thanks to that event!

Now he's gone, I'm happy, just like one hour ago. Didn't communicate with anyone but Mr.Scott, during the day, talked with my soul while heading home all along my Bluetooth earbuds. Dah. This is life.

Life that the biggest fact of it is..

I love spending my days with him~