#elohime

I despise the Elohim. I remember the Elohim telling me that I was going to be put in a bottomless pit, for that was where they claimed I belonged.  The Elohim sent me confusing messages. Not only did they encouraged me to pray, they revealed to me horrors. They showed me 911 before it ever happened and told me that if I was ever to have a child that I would die.  They wanted me to stay in Christianity, sending me nightmares and telling me that I would pay dearly if I do not return to Christ. Funny thing is, they also encouraged me to believe in reincarnation and stated to me that people’s spirits evolve from animals, which is not true.  They even said that my parents weren’t my real parts, spiritually, which is not true as revealed to me by Satan and his demons. The Elohim abducted my spirit once and showed me what their heaven looked like and how many languages they could speak. Everything was circular with them. They revealed to me psychically how much knowledge they had, books upon books of information.  I would describe “heaven” to you, but all I can say is that every Christian experiences the same thing. Everything is similar, unoriginal, and over the top. Spectacular, ostentatious, whatever the word you wish to use, they went above and beyond to make heaven into Shangri-La.  One of the Elohim came to me as a bright light and told me as though he was god to tell everyone of his second coming. The Elohim also showed me Hell, even dragged me there by chains. They showed me that Hell is a fiery place where people live in a disillusioned state of mind. In truth, it was like a psychiatric ward, where some people are taken apart and others live like they are in lala-land while they burn. I felt the burn and experienced it for myself. I even saw another version of hell, where it was nothing but a fiery furnace and that I was going to be cast into it...or more like pulled into it, to burn for all eternity. The Elohim said that I was going to hell, no matter what I did. The Elohim tortured me into submission. They tortured me into Christianity. They had me under their feet, hurting me. They forced me to bow to Christ, on my face and at his feet. The Elohim threatened me when I thought of Satan and tortured me, holding me down whilst being awake. I could not move. I believe they are also to blame for telling me to DIE with me being casted into a pit of sharp stones. Then again, it could have been anyone telling me to DIE, but every time I received dreams of falling, the Elohim would hold me down when I opened my eyes and told me things, threats to be more precise and they always brought Satan into the equation that I will suffer with him. As if I didn’t pray enough, the Elohim always wanted me to pray more. Whenever I wasn’t praying like I used to, they encouraged me to pray. They needed me to, so as to acquire more energy. Prayer works that way.  When Satan was showing me about Nebuchadnezzar II's life through his eyes, the Elohim threatened me for thinking about him or it. They hated the fact that I saw the truth about how Jews (or Khazars) really were. They even threatened me.  When I was in new age, I received a guide that I could never remember her name. She introduced herself once and that was it. This guide never helped me, never communicated with me. She seemed slow, but honestly I believe she was there to keep me from the truth. She never gave me information or told me the truth about anything. We only went places that were beautiful or modern and she, too, was cold to me. She even looked at me funny and did so more than once, and one of those times she seemed eerie or frightening (she leaned over to the side like in ways you’d see monsters do in horror films). She pretended to not know what was going on, whilst demons tried to get ahold of me.  She only warned me once that I was “going the wrong way” when I chose to go over into Satanism. When I am in Satanism, they still threaten me.   There was this one time, after I had reconstructed my psychic temple (with lotuses for Lilith), that an “angel” came and forced his message upon me. I saw him or her mocked me, pretending to be moved by my devotion. This “angel” then told me forcefully to “get out” or “get away from those animals”, calling the gods dogs and pigs. He or she even showed me that, and I was a dog among them, while Satan was a shark that hovered above me. Satan had appeared to me as a shark before many times, so they went with that.  But I have also seen the "angels" at work as well. I've witnessed them in church (when I used to go) and they were working through people in a disturbing way. They were partially possessing them, their heads merged into others. I am sure they did the same to me. I have also seen angels working on people who are supposedly mentally "unstable".  I've seen them and they don't help humankind. They manipulate and torture humans, these "angels".  And when I was force to go to church as a child (which I hated and begged my parents not to go), I would receive these evil stares. The stares were malevolent and I could see with my mind's eye the evil that lurked about me.   The most horrible experience for me was when I was a child. Not only did the Elohim proceed to possess me into madness and had my father beat me to submit, but they gave me horrific dreams of them beating on Satan himself. They showed me him in chains and mocked him and I as they hurt him, making him submit to their will. It was horrific and they made me watch more than twice. They did it to me again as a young teenager, showing me how they had him under their will. I can never forget the look on Satan's face when he looked at me. I could cry. In fact, it haunts me to this day. It was by far the worst experience for me, more so than any other experience...to watch Lucifer being treated like an abused animal...and "Christ" was there to witness it, too.