#elk's asks

hana, who will censor fuck and then say this shit 😭

-> angst-fluff. noya x foreign!gn!reader, 500 words.

nishinoya opened his eyes, the memory of his dream fading. he didn't want to lose it for whatever reason, and he focused very hard on trying to remember what it was. something about being back in japan. back - with.. with someone he used to love.

kiyoko. he smiled fondly at the memory of her. she wasn't you, but... she'd been so beautiful, and kind, too. such a sweet person. absolutely gorgeous. she was kiyoko. she'd been...

noya glanced to his side. you were still asleep.

why he'd married you while still in love with and thinking about kiyoko, he didn't know.

why he'd thought this would make his old feelings go away, he didn't know.

you were fine. he didn't dislike you. but you weren't her.

nishinoya ran his hands through his hair, staring at you. this wasn't fair to either of you and that was entirely his fault. he didn't love you. he didn't know what love was. he was still thinking about someone in another country from nearly another life of his.

and then you stirred.

"hm? yuu, are you okay?"

your adorable accent pulled him out of his trance. he pulled his mouth into a drowsy smile. "good morning, my love."

"are you okay?"

you weren't kiyoko.

but then, kiyoko hadn't once looked in his direction. she hadn't touched him tenderly like you had. she never smiled at him like she couldn't believe he was real, like you were doing right now. she had been someone he had admired a ton -- but had she been someone that made every inch of him want to be close again, warm and happy? further than attraction he'd had with kiyoko, what had there been? but with you he had everything and he gave and recieved everything.

you weren't kiyoko. but you were everything to him. he longed for you, even with you in his arms.

it was time that he let go of the past. and as he became more awake and felt the dream leave him, he knew he hadn't been thinking clearly. the dream had been a relapse of dreams he'd had in high school. unrealistic, and definitely not something he should judge his feelings off of.

he did know what love was. it was you. the person he'd met on the other side of the world. in another country. you hadn't known a word of japanese but somehow the two of you had become so curious about each other that you learned each other's languages and weren't disappointed.

fate. not a coincidence, like attending the same high school or being part of the same club.

you weren't kiyoko, but you were his beautiful, unintentional, perfect fate. every -- every piece of you was meant to be his, and every part of him was yours.

"i'm happy," he said, leaning over you and placing several kisses on your mouth and jaw and neck. you were so perfect. he couldn't ask for more. "you?"

you smiled. "i'm good."

How have u been elek? Do u have a valentine😏😏😏

no 😤 BUT I do have some FANTASTIC recs!! this ended up as me yelling about my moots for about two hours but it's okay. I tried to include a fic rec with each person because they're all WOW. but it was so hard picking just one in many instances pls (in alphabetical order bc there are many)

@bokubonk - I LITERALLY BINGED A TON OF MAI'S STUFF AT ONE POINT BECAUSE I PHYSICALLY COULD NOT STOP . i have so many recommendations but i have to settle for "your name" with tanaka because h h hhhh she he him tanaka HE WOW CHARACTERIZATION

thank you for this ask!! since i'm sorta tired rn i will not be doing all 75+ moots, only a few random lovelies <3

watch half of these be oikawa tooru

I hc as razor being the most accepting of mental health illnesses and treats it as equal to physical illness/injury, like if he saw you crying/disassociated/having a panic attack he's instantly like 'you're hurt? Where are you hurt?' while checking over your body for injury, and you kinda have to spend a while trying to explain that you're not physically hurt, it's your brain that is sick. It takes him a little while to understand what you mean but he's just like' but you're still hurt? ', he spends so much time out foraging for plants and berries with healing properties that he usually uses on the wolves when they get injured, because if they can heal a wolves cuts and scrapes then they can heal your pain too, right? Obviously you have to explain thats not the case, but seeing him put so much effort into trying to make you feel better makes you feel so loved and taken care of. Also I think if you were to take medication/get therapy etc for your mental illness he would see no problem at all and would even make sure you keep on top of taking your meds, because he gives medical flowers to the wolves when they're hurt so you need to take your medicine as well

Tl:Dr he doesn't see the difference between physical pain and mental pain and they're both equally important to him, if you're hurt in any way then he'll do his best to help you, even though he doesn't really understand what helps

OMG OMG YAY I'M SO HERE FOR IT CHLOE i saved reading this because i wanted to FULLY BE ABLE TO GIVE IT MY ATTENTION WOO

Ok ok so imagine dating Tanaka but y’all have the type of relationship where you act like best friends in public but are completely different behind closed doors. And so the team doesn’t realize it until they catch y’all in an intimate moment or something

No pressure my love <3

ok this is the best thing ever thank you ALSO this is the relationship i would aspire for hfbdjghg

tanaka ryuunosuke (my love) x gn!reader (but one allusion to being a sisterly figure, although denied). fluff, slight crack. 400w.

— 9:03PM

to the karasuno volleyball club, your affection for tanaka ryuunosuke seemed to resemble that of a sibling. in fact, hinata had once commented that it was "like a second big sis, but even cooler!" although you didn't care as much for the term of "sis" as saeko seemed to, you and tanaka took great amusement in the whole thing. why should you explain, when the two of you already had everything you needed? tanaka, of course, had hinted to nishinoya multiple times through his decreased behaviour towards generally pretty people, but noya had not yet figured it out either.

your favourite part of this relationship by far was the way that moments were few and far between with days around the team. days marching the town or fooling around in the neighbourhoods at dusk, yours and a few others' laughter echoing off of the houses at the end of the street and meeting you again.

neither of you had really had something so simple. mutual feelings, easygoing relationship, trust. of course there were flaws in what you had going — for starters, a shared friend group who, if they caught wind about you, would turn it into a whole thing and unintentionally make the two of you insecure.

or at least, that's what you expected.

but when, after several minutes of kissing tanaka and laughing about something coincidental ennoshita had said, his back against the pole of a power line, neither of you had expected to notice hinata stopped several feet away with his face bright red and his mouth wide open, a millisecond from yelling. you both covered your mouths and broke apart from each other, not embarrassed to be with each other but incredibly unsure of how to react to the circumstances.

your mind could only compare it to seeing a child react to seeing their parents kiss, and you nearly snorted as you said, "wait, hinata, it's not what you think."

"it is what you think, hinata," tanaka countered, a grin on his face. "surprised, you li'l sneak?"

"you— you—"

"it's okay, hinata, take your time," you said, watching his reaction and exchanging glances with tanaka with utmost glee. and you thought to yourself... maybe not telling everyone wasn't going to have a huge impact on your relationship, but seeing this reaction made all the sneaking about quite worth it.

It’s gotten worse