#eldritchbauble

I hate when there's a thing that's directly related to one of my disabilities, that I can't just not do, that I'm already self conscious about when I notice it, and people point it out or tell me to stop doing it because it's (minorly) annoying. In this case it's about how I will sometimes be repetitive. I do it both in text and verbally. I honestly can't quite pinpoint the cause (whether it's autism or OCD related), but I know that I can't just not do it even though I want to. I know this because I've tried to just not do it, because when I catch myself doing it, I can feel myself being annoying. I know people don't want to hear the same point reiterated 2-3 times, but also, it would be nice if people realized (minorly) annoying things aren't worth shaming people for, especially when you know it's directly related to a disability. I have family who are fully aware of the reason I do it and will still tell me to "say things once and stop, except in your own head to yourself." Like it's simple.

I both experienced gendered socialization as a kid (everyone does it came free with living in a society that proscribes and viciously enforces gender) and didn't experience it the same was pericis kids do, because I'm intersex and have had visible mixed sex characteristics since puberty, and was raised fairly gender neutral and viewed as fluid by my parents because they didn't want to be weird conservatives about things like my clothes and hobbies (this is one of the things they actually did right by me). Obviously I was assigned a binary sex at birth and this guided how I was perceived and treated. But it also wasn't the same experience as most other kids.

I need people w ovaries who are on t to know that if your dr has tried to adjust your dose 100x and you can't figure out why you're still dealing with things like cycical symptoms of PMS or PMDD, cramps, and even spotting or bleeding, it's because 1/3 of people continue to have cycles and ovulate on t. Hormonal contraceptives can offer relief. This is also why t is not a method of contraception, so if you can get pregnant and don't want to be, then you need to use another method. It is safe to use contraceptives on t. They will not interfere with your HRT.