It feels like Azathoth is calling again. His energy is so relaxing to me (being partially eldritch myself). Its like sitting in warmth in deep space, though somewhat frenetic, given his nature. For those who wonder he can actually communicate with others, to those attuned, like him, aligned or as he chooses. But its not in words, its not even a language, but sensation feeling, interpreting listening. He is not so "asleep" as lovecraft made him out to be. I believe the "blind-idiot god" description oft given to Azathoth is simply because those that gave him that term could not understand or comprehend his energy, how he communicated. He is overwhelming and its almost too sensory, but eventually it calms down. Azathoth has been a great guide to me (as have Nyarlathotep and Shub Niggurath among others) in dealing with and healing from a specific extremely traumatic incident with another unnamed eldritch being. ( that I am not willing to talk about yet and maybe I never will be here) He has shown comfort and taught me to embrace a new understanding. to note: this is personal to me, my nature my energy structure. I do not believe others would get the same and maybe only eldritch can communicate with eldritch- at any rate exactly how he communes with me is specific to my senses. But I do think he could commune with others, if they chose to learn and attune.

I do not see him as a specific structure he is more nebulous mist like then that and is constantly changing, constant movement, momentum and also not- given he is nuclear chaos. He feels similar sometimes to Shub Niggurath- who energy I adore, though she is more tentacles, motherly and earthy- her "hugs" are very comforting to my energy systems. I am honored to connect and work with these beings, kin to an extent who have also been a blessing in my life.

Hey, hi, hello, this is a blog dedicated to sharing thoughts about Eldritch energy and beings, especially of a non-Lovecraftian origin and nature.

💚 While we aim to keep irrelevant personal info to a minimum here, you can call us X. We are agender and use they/them pronouns exclusively, and the “we/us” is because we are spiritually sort-of-plural due to Eldritch influence. This is one of the reasons we started this blog, as this actually seems to be fairly common, as does being a shard of some sort.

🖤 Everything we post here is UPG (unverified personal gnosis). It is our experience, sometimes corroborated by friends and peers, as well as things we have gathered from observation.

💚  We have been aware of our general Eldritch nature for over six years now, and aware of our specific nature and origin for two years. We consider ourselves to have “awakened” that part of our nature at that point. Several bits and pieces that lead to this conclusion have been occurring for over a decade, up to throughout our whole life here (25+ years, we will not give our exact age).

🖤 Our semi-plurality results from our absorption of numerous different entities over the course of our various incarnations as a result of our Eldritch nature “fusing” things to us, and us retaining their memories and traits in various ways. We also have a fair amount of Draconic energy in our energy system as a result of both this and the nature of the specific Draconic energy we absorbed becoming “co-dominant”.

WHAT THIS BLOG IS

A place for us to make our own notes, observations, and information available to other energy workers and Eldritch-aligned people for the sake of adding to a greater knowledge pool.

A place to collect the notes and research of others for the sake of archiving as well as adding onto where appropriate.

An attempt to hopefully expand the awareness of different types and substrains of Eldritch energies and entities that people we’ve seen around here have not considered or are not aware of.

Overall, just a way to interact and engage with people of a similar nature and with similar interests on the basis of Eldritch energies, entities, and related concepts.

WHAT THIS BLOG ISN’T

A roleplay blog.

A blog that engages in discourse or community drama of any sort.

An opportunity for people to read our energy freely. Please don’t. We’re very mental/”psy” leaning in nature, meaning attempting to do so could be dangerous for you.

An opportunity for people to call us delusional or crazy. That’s rude, first off, and secondly, it isn’t your place to decide that. If you aren’t a fan of our experiences and ideas, please do yourself a favor by blocking us and moving on. We’re certain you have better things to do with your time than pestering someone online, especially if you are, in fact, a practicing magician/witch/spirit worker/etc.

A place to ask us to attune you to our substrain. We will NOT do this. Not even for money.

A place to attempt to interfere with our work and our connection to our source. We aren’t even sure how outsiders would contact our source, quite frankly, but if it resonates with you you’re welcome to try at your own risk.

MORE ABOUT OUR SOURCE/SUBSTRAIN

We are derived from an as-of-yet “undocumented” form of Eldritch energy that is simultaneously an entity and a “subplane”. In our experiences, it manifests outside reality entirely and is only capable of entering through coincidental circumstance. If this seems confusing, it’s because it is, and it’s something we hope to outline more fully in a post someday.

It bears some resemblance to a boundary energy between unreality and antireality (as proposed by this post). We say this due to not having any better vocabulary or concepts/contexts. That’s part of why we made this blog; a refinement of understanding for ourselves and others.

The most prominent energetic traits we’ve noted about our source are: high occurrences of reality-warping by proximity, extreme adaptability even for Eldritch energy, high control of energy production and manifestation (no accidental Shoggoth creation), retention and seeking of energy via information-gathering and manipulation (this can be as abstract as latching onto occult currents and genetic history or as direct as latching onto data and printed works), existence of both feeders AND generators via specialized “offshoots”, ease of manifestation and infiltration via dreams, manifestation as a result of a probability outside itself matching a probability inside itself, lack of direct line of communication between source and offshoots.

As for our specific substrain, the easiest way to describe it would be through pop culture references despite it not being pop culture derived in origin. These include A.pocrypha and H.ermaeus M.ora from T.E/S, the Warehouse and Artifacts from W.arehouse 13, The 👁️ and The E.xtinction from T.M/A, and the Library and Librarians from both the series of the same name and L.ibrary of R.uina (as well as A.bnormalities/Distortions from the latter), as well as bearing vague similarities to the concept of the “Akashic Records”, albeit far more aggressive in seeking out and retaining information. We became heavily adapted to technology and data through various other lives and also as a result of our “progenitor”.

We will mostly be talking about our data/information related substrain, as opposed to our overall source due to it being easier to interface with thanks to significant differentiation over time, as well as us having more experience with it. It also falls into a category of Eldritch energy that very much exists, but has not received much attention in energy/spirit work circles. This is also the reason behind our URL! Transmission of information via stories especially seems to be a sort of vector for our substrain.

If any of our posts seem to cause contamination as a result of all of this, we’re actually really sorry. We do a lot to keep accidental contamination to a minimum, which isn’t terribly common but is still a potential risk (especially when we get very passionate about something, which is part of why we have a strict no-drama rule on this blog) and any suggestions as to how to mitigate this further would be welcome both for us and for adding to the information pool we hope to create. Our current precautions include multiple levels of self-wards (on our devices as well as ourselves), regular energetic recall or neutralization, and other entities assisting in these tasks.

We hope this blog is helpful for others as well as ourselves. We look forward to sharing more.