#egokiss

Seowon’s three years into the idol industry, and by this point, he’d like to think that he knows the fine line between fanservice and pissing off your fans like the back of his hand.

It’s with the knowledge of this line in mind that he blocks off Shin Doah’s (Haute Pink, main cast member of this show he’s guesting on, pretty girl) attempts to flirt with him on camera. It’s a bad move, apparently, because Doah’s acted prickly with him for the remaining hours of the episode’s shooting. Seowon is, by no means, a variety genius, but he’s done enough research-watching to know that an episode where he’s nervously laughing, stumbling over his words, while one of the main cast members is ever so slightly frowning at him can’t be a fun one to watch. In his defense, Seowon’s supposed to do this. If he was a little less selfish, it was because he was protecting her, in his own way. If Seowon was honest, it’s because he can’t lose his grip on the love that’s been given to him over some joke and a punchline. The love he receives, in a way, is him, and it was like– an addiction that he knew full well he needed help for. Tomorrow, after one last hit.

Seowon’s by the food truck sent by his fans, decorated with posters of his face and motivational messages and feels that love. It’s comforting. It makes him feel a little less guilty about humiliating his senior on television. It doesn’t last long, though, because he spots the senior in question soon enough. Still holding a paper cup filled with jasmine tea, he orders one more, and makes a beeline to Doah, a thank you barely heard to the staff handing him the cup.

“Sunbaenim,” he starts, stretching out his hand to offer her the tea that he’s holding. There’s a safe distance between them. Seowon notices now that the cup has his face printed on it, aegyo and all, and finds himself turning a little red. “I wanted to say sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you, if I did. I was just thinking of my fans and it wasn’t personal at all, really, like,” he pauses. Geez, real humble, Seowon.