SPY X FAMILY CHAPTER 120 SPOILERS BELOWWWWWW
God. Was I expecting a Yor confession immediately after 119? No. Did I eat up every second of it? Yes.
In my last post, I was talking about how our main three characters view their relationships with one another. I wondered if Anya loved her father, which she does, “more than omurice”
This moment was just between Anya and Yor, allowing them both to be honest without the subject of their conversation with them. Anya, again has that innocence of a child, and represents the love a child has for their father. Anya knows the nature of her relationship with her father and in a way has accepted it.
What’s interesting is Yor.
Now, I’m very grateful for this chapter, because it shows that Yor is much smarter than people want to admit. I know the subject of her intelligence is played up for laughs, even Anya pokes at it, but here, I’m referring to her emotional intelligence.
There is some significance to these two panels.
1) they’re split in two. It gives the reveal more depth. The first panel focuses on Anya, it shows how her interest is piqued. The second panel splitting between the two focuses on Yor, but also Anya. The two are being honest with each other, Yor’s smile and Anya’s expression are genuine feelings.
2) Okay, look at Anya’s reaction. Anya was just talking to Becky about “her feelings” for Damian. She doesn’t quite understand romantic love, and while Becky ships them hard, Becky is 6, she hardly gets it herself. But Anya, a telepath, still doesn’t get what Yor means by loving Loid. I think that this confession has opened Anya’s eyes a bit, that she’ll start getting the idea of romantic love, not only between her parents, but eventually her and Damian. She’s starting to see it. Anya is growing up. Even with the way she’s doing fractions and learning. It’s been six months in universe and because of her parents and the socialization at school, Anya is learning all types of love. Familial, platonic, romantic, and self love.
Yor says “I might be in love with Loid” we didn’t have a bunch of flashbacks or evidence of some sort to allow us to see how Yor made this conclusion. We saw that moment building up from the last chapter, but it’s been a long time coming. Yor has always admired Loid for accepting her and being a good father towards Anya. Although Yor isn’t able to fully verbalize it towards Anya, she understands that the love she feels for Loid is a different kind. Again, because Loid isn’t there, Yor feels comfortable telling her daughter that she loves her fake husband. I think as the story goes on, we’ll have Yor explain her feelings more into depth. This is just the beginning. We’ll find her being more flirtatious, noticing more things about him, being a little a more comfortable.
Yor is harboring so much guilt and negative feelings; she thinks her being an assassin means she can’t be with Loid (and little does she know he’s also hiding a secret!) She has little self esteem. Remember when her coworkers said early in the series that Yor had potential? Yor hardly saw herself as beautiful, and then here comes Twilight/Loid calling her beautiful and wanting a fake marriage with her. (And a side note: I think Loid was being honest here about her beauty, even if he was using that sentence to manipulate her). She feels like her feelings will complicate the contract for Loid. Even when discussing her feelings, she keeps thinking of Loid. This is how you know she truly cares for him. It’s just said that she denies herself romantic love.
She makes Anya promise not tell Loid. And Anya reads her mind at that time. Maybe she understands how serious her mom’s feelings are. Maybe she sees how much her mom doubts herself and holds so much guilt and shame over her career.
Which is why the reveal is going to be so painful, yet so delicious. Yor is doing the exact thing Loid keeps trying to fight against. Putting her feelings into the situation. But while this is a mission for Loid, it’s becoming more for her. The big question is, will Loid realize and confess before the reveal ? There’s so many things in between, Desmond, Project Apple, Melinda, Yuri and the SSS… so I don’t feel like we’re getting that any time soon. Loid has a long way to go, but I believe that Endo has already set the foundation for him. From noticing how close Yuri and Yor were in the early chapters, to him talking to Franky in the bar after Yor rejected him, when he was thinking about his family at the dog park and then after the Wheeler arc. I think a lot of people focus on Loid falling in love, Loid confessing, but I think it’s so fun to explore Yor as a character more and how their relationship grows from her perspective.
