#dynamics analysis

aka what happens when your self-esteem is rock-bottom versus what happens when your sense of self is bigger than god. don't get me wrong there's enough of self-hatred to pass around between skk but while they do blame their own inhumanity for why living is so painful, they also know they're the shit and so they turn to judge the worthiness of living (as a human) itself

which is also why dazai being sskk's mentor is so funny. if you think about it he's literally just their personal "person most worthy of living" mascot who doles out 'you did well's like band-aids for their issues. but there's always this disconnect because dazai can't empathise with them so he does nothing for the root of the problem and they have to fix it themselves through each other. which is hilarious because then

everyone: *comes at dazai for being ass at this mentorship thing*

dazai: have you considered our vibes don't match the central themes of our characters are incompatible?

Brelly Benny, in the first season, does only one thing: he controls Klaus. He feels powerless for being dead and of course he cares for Klaus and is somehow trying to help him with his addiction, but in his powerlessness, he is all the time trying to make Klaus do what he thinks is best. 

And, I get it! It must suck to be dead and see the only person who you can talk to living like Klaus used to live. I get how fucking mad he must get when Klaus lies, saying he is against killing his mom or that he was not able to time-travel. Or when he pretends he doesn’t know who your crush is just for you to see she’s not all that. 

Klaus & Ben are both pretty shitty to each other. And they only have each other. 

Benny is a bossy guy. He likes to tell Klaus what to do, what he’s done wrong, how shitty he is. He fucking forces himself in his body (hello everyone who is hating on Allison this season), Klaus says he feels violated. Later Ben is waiting for him to fall asleep so he can fucking steal his body and Klaus has trouble getting him out.

We see Ben deciding to not help Klaus, but every time Klaus goes against his wishes he fucking bullys him into listening to him os he fucking forces him to do what he wants.

Benny is exacly a pushy guy towards Klaus. He would totally use what he knows about Klaus to make him submit.

Klaus don’t want to share Ben with the others. Ben wants Klaus to obey him.

That’s the way they fucking love each other.

And when we get to Sparrow Ben, all this shit, his shit, is everywhere.

He’s also manipulative, bossy, pushy, bitchy and fucking selfish. 

We talk a lot about how he “didn’t care” about his siblings deaths, but we don’t talk about how dead Ben makes Klaus’ panic attack about how he feels trapped. to a guy who’s kidnapped and being tortured lol.

The difference between Sparrow and Brelly Ben is not about how bitchy or selfish or mean they are. It’s about c o n f i d e n c e.

Sparrow Ben is afraid of showing himself. Ben6 is not, because he is fucking dead and has only one person to judge him and this person is Klaus who no one takes seriously. (And who he knows love him no matter what)

Sparrow Ben was once number one and for some reason (that I’m sure we’ll see next season) he was demoted. He has a portrait of him on the wall to remind him of who he could’ve been. He feels like a failure and is trying to show his father, and himself, he actually deserves to be number one, to lead.

He fucking hates himself. He’s full of shame. He probably feels like no one would love him.

You know when someone with rejection issues fucking sabotages their chance of getting close to people for them to not have a chance to be rejected? Yeah, that’s Ben2 dealing with the umbrellas. 

Ben2 thinks he needs to earn affection, so of course he freaks out when those strangers seem to love him for nothing. And of course his impostor’s syndrom gets worse when they keep comparing him to some perfect ghost.

And then we have Klaus.

Who tells him all of the shitty things about Ben6. Things that are true about Ben2 as well.

When Ben2 points out that those reasons for him to love Ben6 are all bad things, the point is not really that those are bad things. These are his things. Things that no one loves about him.

And that’s why he opens up to Klaus, because Klaus seems to be able to love not his perfect (and nonexistent) self, but all those flaws that haunt him.

Klaus is looking for belonging, that’s why he feels at peace in the void. He’s always felt out of place. Guess who also longs for belonging and feels out of place? Benny Boy 2.0

I personally see a way healthier potential in Ben2 and Klaus’ relationship than Ben6 and Klaus’ simply because I don’t feel like Ben2 has this much power over Klaus. And Klaus is unable to control his access to the world just as much.

And again, I get how Ben6 could only influence Klaus from all the world and nothing else. And I get why lonely Klaus wouldn’t like to share Ben6 with the world. But I’m dying to see how Ben2 and Klaus will deal with each other sober.

they’re not close but it’s not like they don’t get along, think post crisis tim and selina.

the thing is that both of their moral compasses are essential to their own characters; both being driven by compassion and devotion.

they definitely wouldn’t hate each other or probably anything close to that. whats important to note is that jason doesn’t hate those who aren’t willing to kill, and that cass is against senseless deaths. Jason’s whole thing is that there are those not willing to change or even see the fault in their ways, so it would be better to just get rid of them than risk them getting out and reestablishing their past MOs. While Cass was never given the choice when she was younger to do anything else but, her entire journey was existing outside of that image of having to kill others and being the one to take away their future choices herself.

One is about taking the options away from those who have refuse to change them, and the other lives to save all and give them a chance at it. They may be at odds but they could still reside among eachother.