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Techno POV

Phil texted me ten minutes ago that the kid was here. I don’t want to know if the kid is homophobic. I have a headache and I keep seeing the stupid black blobs again; But I have to meet the kid sometime. I power off my PC and walk out of my room and I can already hear Wilbur and the kid. I look over the railing and the kids got blond hair. Everyone is sitting in the living room and Phil asks them “what’s your favorite game Tommy?” Tommy’s face brightens instantly and a grin spreads across their face “Minecraft of course.” Pft. Now that’s funny. “Phil made Minecraft, have you seen our last name?” I say walking down the rest of the way into the living room, Phil laughs as shock spreads across Tommy’s face. Then Tommy looked at me, it was a questioning look of ‘who are you?’ I simply sat across the room with Phil. Phil looked over at me then at Tommy. “This is Technoblade. They’re one of my kids.” Phil said putting a hand on my shoulder. “Yep that’s my sibling, they farm potato’s a lot on Minecraft.” Wilbur says with a grin. Geez guys I wonder if Tommy got the hint. Tommy nodded he had a look of realization and ?joy?.

“Well kids is anyone hungry?” Phil says with a grin. Wilbur nods a bit, Tommy just looks a little nervous. “Wait! I have an idea! Tommy should pick lunch!” Wilbur says excited. Tommy just looks more worried while starting out, “no, no I really don’t need to.” Phil definitely picks up what I pick up. “Mate you can pick if you want to, but you don’t have to.” He says in that fatherly tone. Wilbur immediately looks worried “sorry if made you uncomfortable! I thought you might want to.” He says panicking a bit. Wilbur really likes this kid, he immediately started being nice and brotherly. It was definitely weird. Though as much I wanted to listen to this new found drama I was hearing the voices and seeing those stupid black blobs. And apparently I was listening and watching those things for too long; because Phil is talking to me now. “Tech? Tech you okay there bud?” He asks me. I snap back to reality, “ hm? I’m fine Phil.” I hum refocusing my eyes on whatever is going on now.

Phil looks at me concerned, he rubs my shoulder. “I’m going yo my room…” I mumble getting up and walk upstairs. I hear footsteps coming after me. “Tech? What’s going on?” Wilbur asks running up to my door as I close it. “Wilbur leave me alone. I need a break.” I say through the door as I slide down and sit infront of it. “Tech is it the voices?” He asks in a quiet. “Nope! Just need a break.” I say with a laugh. I hear his foot steps trail away as I take out my phone. I don’t really know what I’m doing but I end up texting that wrong number again.

Techno ^ ey. Whatcha doing wrong #? - READ

?#? ^ sitting in my room playing Minecraft. Hbu? - READ

Techno ^ seeing things and sitting in front of my door. lol. - READ

Techno ^ can I call you pastel? You seem | - DELETED & NEVER SENT

After a little bit they text back

?#? ^ sorry I was playing bed wars. - READ

?#? ^ are you ok? - READ

Techno ^ yeah just tired - READ

?#? ^ maybe you should go to sleep? - READ

Techno ^ nah, just got a new foster sib. I gotta talk to ‘em. - READ

Techno ^ they prob think I’m insane now. - READ

?#? ^ well I’m sorry to leave ya like this but I gtg - READ

I turned off my phone. I was at least feeling a little better. While I was talking to random, Phil had messaged me, asking if everything was okay was all right, He also asked if I was hungry, if it’s a shutdown/meltdown, and if I need him. I didn’t respond to any of those messages. It was overwhelming I want to cry that was rare unless it was a meltdown, I had meltdowns every so often. Sometimes when school was absolutely horrible or when I just have an off day. And honestly, I have a lot of ‘off’ and overwhelming days which is getting increasingly more worrying especially for Phil, he usually is the one who helps me unless I hide it. I really don’t want him to have to deal with me when he already has to make sure everything’s alright with Tommy and Wilbur, I should probably go downstairs but I really just want to curl up in my blankets and just lie down. As soon as I get comfortable, theres a knock at my door, I try not to let the fuzzy feeling win as I yell out a “yes?”. The door opens a bit as Phil sticks his head in, his eyes seem to soften slightly at seeing me just curled up in like five blankets instead pulling at my hair. I honestly don’t remember going to my bed but I’m here so…

“I brought you food.” Phil says quietly. “Thank you” I say sitting up slightly. Phil opens the door fully, more light leaking in. He walked in and sat on the chair by my bed turning on the lamp on my bedside table. He was smiling softly at me as he put the plate on the bedside table. “You doing okay?” He asks and I just nod then pause “the voices and blobs are acting up.” I say taking a deep breath. A look of realizations crosses his face. “Do you want to talk to your psychiatrist? Maybe see if she can up your dose?” “Maybe I don’t feel like talking to Puffy right now though. Shes nice but she’ll ask questions I don’t want to answer right now.” I say wrapping my blanket tighter and run my hand over the soft fabric, the fuzzy feeling beginning to take over my mind. Phil just nods. “Well, come down when you’re ready.” I just nod and bring my knees to my chest. He gets up and walks to the door pausing as he closes it “I’m here Tech.” He says before leaving I look over to the food, pizza & tater tots. I grab the plate gently and set it on my knees before grabbing my phone. Three unread messages, two from Wilbur, “pizza and tater tots still a safe food?” “Hope so, I suggested it and Tommy seems to like them as well so yea.” I send him a quick reply “yea. Thanks.” Before I check the other messages.

?#? ^ hey, I hope your feeling better. You wanna talk about it? - READ

Techno ^ feeling a bit better I suppose. Nah it’s all good don’t wanna yap about it to someone random. No offense. - READ

?#? ^ understandable. No offense taken. - READ

Techno ^ so er- what timezone you in? - READ

?#? ^ PST I think.

Techno ^ oh. Same.

?#? ^ nice. What time you usually stay up to?

?#? ^ shit, knock at my door. Brb. - READ

Techno ^ alr, I have insomnia so like 12-3am.

After a few minutes of no response I gave up. Deciding to finish off my food and bring the plate down. The fuzzy feeling started surfacing more as I walked towards the stairs causing me to stumble a bit. I stopped for a second to steady myself in the hall, a door opened and I looked over and it was Wilbur. He walked over to me holding his plate and just took mine. “Heh?” “You’re wobbly. You don’t need to worry about dropping about a plate and falling.” He says simply before heading down the stairs. “Thanks I guess?” I say following after him. Phil was sitting on the couch watching a show. While Wilbur walked to the kitchen I stood watching the TV for a moment. The fright colorful colors and silly characters made the fuzzy feeling try to take over even more. Phil looked up from his phone and spoke “hey Tech,” he paused looking up at the TV, “oh this just started auto playing I guess.” He looked to me. “You wanna come watch it kiddo?” He said in a slightly hesitant tone at the end. I drag my eyes away from the TV and just give him a small nod. I stumble over curling up beside him and he puts a blanket around me and pulls me into his side. I just slowly let the fuzzy feeling win as we watched the show just seeing the bright colors and characters. There were childish thoughts flooding my mind but it was confusing so just ignored it, slowly falling asleep.

Karl POV (morning)

Last night. I don’t know what to say about it. I don’t even wanna remember. I couldn’t respond to messages last night, so I just left wrong number person on read. I should finally respond. I twist a to grab my phone wincing

?#? ^ Alr, I have insomnia so like 12-3am. - READ

(Next message is from the morning)

?#? ^ er- this may sound weird but does your head ever feel fuzzy? And like take over and if it does, it feels childish? Idk - READ

Karl ^ uh. Not me but one of my friends, I believe it’s called age regression. Why? - READ

?#? ^ oh. I looked up “age regression” it seems okay. I think I may be happening to me like involuntarily… - READ

Karl ^ ah if ever need someone to like bother when little (that’s what it’s sometimes called) you can ‘bother’ me, I’ve taken care of my boyfriend a few times. - READ

?#? ^ maybe.. I dunno. It happened when I watched a show with my adopted dad. - READ

Karl ^ oof. First time? - READ

?#? ^ yea…

Karl ^ did he question you or anything? - READ

?#? ^ no, luckily. I just fell asleep + woke up in my bed. - READ

?#? ^ oh shit. I’m being called for breakfast. Uh- talk to you later? - READ

Karl ^ yea ofc. And that’s good- and sweet. Bye ttyl - READ

I pause for a moment now that I’d replied, I didn’t really know what to do. Maybe I could text Quackity, that conversation made me think about him. I just end up texting me, Quackity, and Sapnap’s group chat.

Karl ^ boredom is inhabiting my life. Also how do you make a new little feel more comfortable w/ their headspace? - READ READ

Quackity <3 ^ haha L. - READ READ

Quackity <3 ^ uh idk js be there or smth? 🤷🏽 (I actually drew that emoji in my paper version) - READ READ

Sapnap <3 ^ L. (You wanna hang out?) just like make sure they know that it’s a good coping mechanism + not weird - READ READ

Karl ^ (sure) alr thaks y’all <3 - READ READ

Karl ^ thanks* - READ READ

Sapnap <3 ^ when did you come into contact w/ another little? (My house?) - READ READ

Quackity <3 ^ yea! Are you abandoning me (us)?! (/dramatic) - READ READ

Karl ^ ah I texted a wrong number and we ended up talking (yea I’ll be over in ten) - READ READ

Karl ^ yes I am totally leaving my ducking and panda. Totallyyyy. - READ READ

Sapnap <3 ^ How in the fu- how’d you text the wrong number? And the odds of them being a little-.. - READ READ

Quackity <3 ^ Crazy bro.

I just send a shrug emoji before turning off my phone, shoving it in my pocket, and tossing on a hoodie before leaving my room. I put my shoes on quickly, grabbing my key + leaving. Once I get there I knock on the door and it swings open and I get practically tackled into a hug. I hug back before looking up and seeing Sapnap standing in the doorway, smiling. After a moment Quackity lets go and Sapnap pulls me through the door also pulling me into a hug whist he closed the door. He lets me go and laughs, “I know it’s only been a day but I missed you.” “I missed you too Karl!” Quackity says forcing all three of us back into a hug. After a bit the hug breaks and we all walk up to Sapnap’s room, me and Quackity sitting on his bed as he sits at his desk, “I had planned to stream today if that’s all good with you guys?” “Of course” Quackity says and I just nod. Me and Quackity cuddle up moving into the corner where we weren’t visible. After a few minutes he greeted chat and Quackity joined on and alt account and watched without audio whist I listened and went on my phone. I scrolled through pintrest for a while before I got a text.

?#? ^ so idk if this will sound weird but idk what to do beacuse that weird fuzzy feeling is back but I need to go to fencing so do you know how to make it go away? - READ

Karl ^ uhh. I don’t know much, it all good if I show this to the other little I know and let him talk? - READ

?#? ^ I guess - READ

I hand my phone to Quackity and scroll u

To the first message and he sets his phone on his stomach before reading then typing.

‘Karl’ ^ ignoring it/ pushing it off can make it stronger + overwhelming and also it’s low-key bad for you. How long is your fencing thing? - READ

?#? ^ two hours. - READ

‘Karl’ ^ …how much- no. Uh one sec trying to figure out how to word this. - READ

‘Karl’ ^ how much is the ‘fuzzy’ feeling clouding your mind currently? - READ

?#? ^ uhh like half? Idk - READ

‘Karl’ ^ so if you put it off for two hours, should probably be okay although if you get overwhelmed/hurt it may trigger the ‘fuzzy’ feeling. So uh, be careful? And you should prob let it take over after - READ

?#? ^ Kay thanks. - READ

Quackity gave me my phone back after sending a random meme I didn’t se. He goes back to watching the stream on his phone. I read over the message s and smile, it was just a random thumbs up meme. I just go back to scrolling for a while.