#dream rambles

Please don't get me wrong, I understand the way fandom works. That people cycle in and out and if you're very lucky you get to experience a brief moment wherein people you greatly respect and admire exist in this bubble at the same time as you. If you're even luckier, sometimes you grow close enough to some of them that they follow you still, though the thing that brought you together is gone the connection you made is still real and solid. I have known both, I have known when my hyperfixation have run their course and must be put away like pieces of a wardrobe being changed to suit the seasons.

Even still, the notion that so many of us have been harmed enough to want to leave because where is the fun when we constantly have to defend ourselves from what feels like all sides including from the way the writing treats our favorite characters... hurts. The hollow ache of that shared pain and knowing that you can do nothing to ease the burden when it becomes so great the only option for their happiness someone has is to leave it all behind still stirs the feelings of melancholy that no configuration of words can ever hope to convey.

I say all of this not to bring down the mood, or to guilt anyone into staying in a fandom that is no longer fun. But to express as eloquently as I can, the gratitude I feel for you, my fellow charlastor creators. The art, the stories, the headcanons and silly jokes. The character studies and the dynamic analyses. Thank you for sharing your love, your joy, with all of us, with me. Thank you for allowing me to see you. And thank you that, even if for just a moment, you all saw me too.

Anyway, the funny thing was that they snuck in while he was sleeping and he woke up immediately, but he was comfortable 'n basking in the sunlight so he faked sleep and just. quietly assessed their skills on stealth and infiltration. grumpy and a little bit amused. definitely didn't want to bother getting up. It was really funny, all the individual ways the students tried to be sneaky 'n using their quirks and such, when you knew Aizawa was already wide awake and silently grading judging them.

Had a dream where I had a damn baby, not a regular baby, it was a grub

It was weird, a June beetle larvae, but I called it autumn

SO.

Basically I logged in my PS4 and apparently Bloodborne got an update.

It took like 10 min iirc and when I got in the game I was teleported to the outside of the advent plaza w a fog wall covering it as if i didnt kill the one reborn (weird bc i did) and like there was a message that popped up when i tried to enter it that said "Gather 3 more hunters" and I had to summon 3 ppl which came quickly

I entered the arena alone for some reason and found Micolash as an enemy w a boss bar, i though oh this sucks until i hit him, it was like the soldier of godrick fight, big HP bar, low hp counter, so in three hits i killed him.

He dropped a coventant item that was like "Unsent letters" and I ahd to like gather 5 unsent letters to some characters in mensis so like the map had a new teleport after the advent plaza that was like mensis?? Idk

I dont remember that one part bc it was a blur but I remember reading through the card dialogue and I remember there was one to Rom, one to Laurence and one to Damian? In Rom's letter it was like confirming Micorom but it was like they were married then divorced and that Rom was Japanese? Idk...Laurences letter couldnt be opened but Damian was like an apology.

Basically- they released a special episode like in season 4 and it was like an hour long but the thing was that it didn’t follow the story of season 5 at all and I remember thinking “wtf this is bullshit what happened” LMAO I WAS SEETHING

But the story was kind of interesting? Basically there were these four gods, they were important and each one represented an element (fire, water, air, earth) and i literally have no idea what they did but they were existing.

But the water god and the air god we’re in love <333 and it was very cute until the water god did something wrong? Evil?? I don’t know it was a dream nothing made sense. But the air god was like “oh fuck you” and all the gods sealed them away in the ocean. But PLOT TWIST! The water god and the air god had a child <33 and it was Mk <33

So the water god was like noo!! My baby!!! And the air god is like “hah fuck you I don’t love you anymore I’m in love with the earth god now” and plans to raise Mk as theirs. In an act of spite and rage, the water god somehow manages to break free for a short moment to separate his child from the gods and send him away to be raised alone.

After that, Mk is raised by Pigsy and everything falls back into canon UNTIL- the water god breaks free and hunts down his child. He finds Mk, pulls him under the ocean with him and tells him that he’s the good guy and the other three gods are not so he, Mk and the group go hunting the other free gods down to save the world.

It’s a bit foggy at this point but there are two scenes burned into my mind where Mk and Wukong are like in the clouds- hunting down the air god- and, with interference from the water god, she ends up dying and she’s like fading away into clouds while she holds Mk in her arms and cries, smiling as she finally is reunited with her baby.

Another scene i remember is Mk standing in some underwater castle alone with the water god and it kinda finally kicks in that this doesn’t seem as good as he thought it was and the water god snaps at him and they end up having a fight Mk does not win.