the lyrics to this song feel really personal but the emotions they're covering are extremely relatable, i took the liberty of doing some whiteout poetry with them in this one to illustrate how i listen to them. also including some extras just cuz the process of making this had some good little photo combos in it. i read river's edge last year and took some photos of the text that captivated me, the afterword really stuck with me and i felt like "no hope for anything" by drauve(where this track is from) fits well as a companion piece to it. would highly recommend both, very influential pieces of art to me.

as for my health im doing okay-ish, just very tired and frazzled and shakey from waking up with a seizure. been feeling severe isolation, desolation, depression and suicidal ideation and DID shit. concurrently also goin thru some big life changes, alot of social loss and substance withdrawals to boot. idk this album has been helping just not feel too lonely in feeling like a hopeless beautiful tragedy. also this is me trying to try and represent a quiet complete and total isolated breakdown when you have no one you can turn to.