#doomdays

"i'm not sure anything constitutes a good fucking idea in this fucking place—"

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donna and adrian. i think they've interacted before?? but he would thrive in fromville, actually. let him be donna's runner between town and colony house

alden and david. my nervous guy needs a soft spoken bestie who will Understand Him and i think alden would get him

And as much as he believes she means it, he finds himself biting his tongue. it's not that he doesn't trust her, there's a million reasons he would rather keep her in the dark -- one being that there's a weight tied to knowing. it's been sitting heavily across his shoulders since the day he found out about the accident, he'd hate to see the same strain in her. AFTER ALL, I AM MY BROTHER'S KEEPER. these are no one else's problems to solve but his ... and Stephen's. but that's only because he's cool in a crisis, somehow always knowing what to do, what to say, how to act. the kind of calculation that sends a chill down your spine if you look too close. so he tries not to, averting his gaze when his friend comes too sharply into focus.

❝ It's nothing, seriously — Drew's just drunk. He'll sleep it off on the couch and he'll be fine in the morning. ❞ the same lie he's been telling himself for weeks. that Drew's just fine and he'll be back to normal soon. ENOUGH DRINKS & PARTIES & NEW MEMORIES. . . it'll be like that night never even happened.

If only the school wasn't as determined to keep her memory alive as they were to erase it. And one day he'll have to swallow how fucked up it is that he just wishes everyone would forget about her, but he does. THE MERE MENTION of her name in conversation makes his stomach twist -- knot in the way it does when you know you're about to be caught in a lie. ❝ I'm sorry you had to see that, he's not usually like that. ❞

Understatement of the century, it takes every last shred of restraint to keep from indulging in the satisfying slam of his locker door. the kind of emotional outburst he'd never expect from Hollander, but a practice he himself engages in almost daily. COOL AS WATER IN THE FACE OF YOUR ENDLESSLY BURNING PYRE. it's enough to drive him mad, biting down on the fangs that threaten to fall -- claws that ache to break the skin. all is quiet as the waves crash over him, but there's no doubt Shane is aware of his turmoil. all too used to the eerie level of discernment that lingers in every look.

❝ Guess you could say that. ❞ like it's not written all over his face, etched into the bruises that gather on every limb. Isaac shows up to practice a kicked dog most days, only for coach to double down on it — remind him that he's nothing without the game.

Sometimes choking on the stakes of it, the threat of a bad play that ends with him chained down to his small town forever. ❝ Did you stay behind to see the show? ❞ Coach really let him have it tonight, he was nearly turning purple at one point. [ not that it wasn't deserved ] Isaac fumbled his way through the first half of the match before getting benched - all after getting to the field just minutes before they were set to start.

also been sitting on this for so long bc. i don't know. couple realistics: it is going to end up being either a book i have already started OR an audiobook i have not started because of all the shit i still need to do.

The first book that I will physically read that I have not started will probably be corrections in ink because. i gotta. so that i can teach my class next semester fdoihso.

reread crooked kingdom so gotta mention my beloved inej <333 also reread king of scars and rule of wolves so leoni hilli my LOVE. alina appearance in row so it counts, too.