#doctors appointments

I went to the doctors because I been having hip pain. Like it woke me from a dead sleep and tried to kill me until I gave up trying to sleep. Eventually mom put a lidocaine patch on which helped immensely. So that's what I asked for. And also I needed my depo shot.

The doctor made me move my legs all over. When she was done I guess I shrimped cause she's like "did moving all that make you sore?" "Yeah.. 🥺"

She said she would send me PT exercises because I said I couldn't go to PT anymore. And I started crying. 💀 Bishi developed some issues since the last time..

She said she was gonna send me hip building muscles cause it'll help pad those joints

I'm like I need butt exercises too because it feels like I'm sitting on a tripod. She Lol 'd. 😂 But for real, omg it's so bad. I teeter on the bones and everything. My butt is so sore. Even on the couch on top of pillows.

So she made my hips ache, and I got a COVID booster in one arm and a depo shot in the opposite hip. And there was a running back and forth from office, to lab, to X-ray, back to office. Ugh. It was a long day.

It's been like 12 hours and my shots are at peak soreness.

Not to mention with my depo so late my nipples been sore too 😂 they feel like my shot site uuuugh oww

So sore.

I desperately want a shower but yesterday was a baaad bad spoon day and today was long and also sore.

I have another appointment tomorrow morning. If it doesn't seem to last forever I'm hoping I'll have a spoon for a shower.

I would wash my hair in the sink/tub at least but, speaking of sore, my ribs are still hella sore also. 🙃 Injuring myself doing just that.

Because like if I'm all "I'm nervous haha" that feels like handing them the "you're just stressed and have anxiety" excuse on a silver platter but like you shouldn't lie right?

And I will definitely be terrified during my consult which will definitely have me trembling like it's in the negatives outside

Today though, I'd though I'd try to and take some control back into my life and see my doctor to address and fix a few of my physical health issues.

At the young old age of 45, I am clearly heading to peri-menapause and not enjoying one bit of it. I've also have PCOS/PMOS (what was know as Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome but is now Polyendocrine Metabolic Ovarian Syndrome) for 31 years of my life and just need an overhaul on my symptoms because I'm so done with it.

I have never had issues with medication and would have no issues with doctor's describing me if I need it, but I've always like to hear what options I have in terms of diet and supplements. But I think I've hit a point in my life where the resistance has gone far enough.

I told me GP today that the theme for my appointment is "Fine.... give me all the meds" lol. I booked a long appointment and had a good conversation about starting my treatment from scratch again which included reviewing the new guideline to doctor's about PMOS.

We have a multi-step action plan for the next 3 months and I feel like this control and vision about my health will help me in the short term at least.

like my life and pain management would be sooo much easier with actual legal access to marijuana and seeing another doctor if this one goes poorly risks being labeled a drug seeker

Ghe first thing I hear after she pulls out the needle is "hold still your a bleeder"

So yeah i got a band aid now

The thought of my boys being with me calmed me down though