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Bring back rec lists and telling everyone how much you love the works in your fandom. I realized most of my Bookmarked Phan fics are Angst/Whump or Hurt/Comfort adjacent, these include:
• No (Permanent) Major Character Death
• Happy Ending
• Frequent Whump
• Little to no smut
• Check the tags for each individual work
(Special warnings are added when the summary doesn't explicitly mention them)
Rec List bellow (15 fics):
A Very Palpable Hit by olivermirror
Author's summary: "Phil kind of nearly dies - well, he has surgery. Dan takes him home and takes care of him."
✓Physical ouch: 5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 2/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
Immortals by solarpower21
Series where Dan tragically dies in an accident, but it doesn't end that way: enters universe hopping.
☆ Personal fave is part two "And live with me forever now" from Dan's POV.
✓Physical ouch: 2/5
✓Emotional ouch: 5/5
✓Comfort: 3.5/5
People think love's for show (but I would die for you in secret) by Ren_Saxon
Author's summary: "(...) Dan leaves.
Phil doesn't know how to bring him back home - he just knows he has to."
✓Physical ouch: 0/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4/5
✓Comfort: 5/5
downtown lights by teethmotif
Author's Summary: "a story about the healing power of gay love and a great cup of coffee"
Warning ⚠️: Heavy themes of suicide and self harm
✓Physical ouch: 3/5
✓Emotional ouch: 5/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
I knew you'd come back to me by solarpower21
Author's summary: "(...) Dan almost dies and wakes up in a universe where he and Phil broke up in 2012."
Warning ⚠️: Mentioned suicide attempt
✓Physical ouch: 3.5
✓Emotional ouch: 4.5/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
A Little Fall of Rain by olivermirror
Author's summary: "Dan stands up too quickly and faints. That's fine, it happens, he knows how to deal with it.
This time, he hits his head.
And Phil, who does not know that head wounds generally tend to bleed like a faucet regardless of severity, freaks the hell out."
✓Physical ouch: 5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4.5/5
✓Comfort: 4.5/5
we'll survive by thisisa (segmentcalled), AloofSociopathVibe (JustThePlanets)
Series
Author's summary: "A soulmate AU in which you only know who your soulmate is when they're close to death. Dan and Phil have totally normal feelings about this."
☆Personal fave is part 1 "actual soulmates" from Dan's POV
Warning ⚠️: Mentioned suicide attempt in part 2
✓Physical ouch: 3.5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 5/5
✓Comfort: 5/5
face the music when it's dire by alicek112
Author's summary: "(...)In which Phil is not a damsel in distress, but Dan still comes to the rescue."
Warning ⚠️: Omegaverse
✓Physical ouch: 1/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
That week in March by Ren_Saxon
Author's summary: "In 2016, a younger Dan attempts suicide and wakes up in his own future."
✓Physical ouch: 3.5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4.5/5
✓Comfort: 5/5
passengers by moonanonymous
Author's summary: "It was an accident. A stupid, avoidable accident but now Phil sits in a waiting room in rural South Dakota and watches the clock tick by."
✓Physical ouch: 3/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
Third Degree by sierraadeux
Author's summary: "Dan sets fires. Phil puts them out"
✓Physical ouch: 3.5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 3.5/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
running you with red by waveydnp
Author's summary: "dan and phil are a&e nurses"
Warning ⚠️: Blood and Injury
✓Physical ouch: 3.5/5
✓Emotional ouch: 4/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
wake up buttercup by alooalex
Author's summary: "dan manages a low blood sugar crisis with all the grace of a half-asleep parent, phil mostly pretends to cooperate"
✓Physical ouch: 4/5
✓Emotional ouch: 3.5/5
✓Comfort: 4/5
stop the world by purpurussy
Author's summary: "(...) An AU where they never met in 2009, and Dan became a 33-year-old depressed lawyer living a secret double life as his marriage and career fall apart.
That is, until Phil shows up..."
Warning ⚠️: Heavy themes of suicide and self harm; Alcoholism
✓Physical ouch: 3/5
✓Emotional hurt: 5/5
✓Comfort: 5/5
Ceases To Be a Secret by TempestRising
Author's summary: "(...) Four times Phil confronts the reality of living with the secret of his and Dan's relationship, and one time Dan confronts it with him."
AU with lawyer Dan and porn actor Phil where Dan notices Phil in a video and stalks his only fans until they meet at a train station, burn a pizza in the oven, dan has an existential crisis, phil starts a yt channel and convinces dan to join, they talk about string theory and get into the longest situationship ever
im enthralled with a fanfic concept i have where dnp are stuck ina sort of roulette of fanfic worlds, where they are thrusted into other universes where they haven't gottan together. they feel compelled to try and find the other versions of themselves, only to accidentally watch themselves come together and fall in love. and the second they get together, and even forced to see if they stay together for a while, but they do, they are sudenly thrusted into another alternate universe, to see it all come together again.
sometimes they are forced to help somehow, sometimes they can't even hear what's going on, forced to only bear witness to their slow or fast journeys
now as much as im into this concept because of the sweet romantic bla bla aspects, im also as equally into it because i just KNOW that dan will keep going like "WHAT?? WHAT NOW?? HOW ELSE AM I GONNA FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU?? AM I A LAWYER?? OF COURSE I AM!! HAVEN'T HEART OF THIS ONE BEFORE!!" and the comedy potantical will be EXCELLENT
don't tempt me (part one of two)
sister daniel/father philip
rated mature, 2.6k (for now)
please see full tags on ao3!
Dan is not very good at being a girl or at being a nun, maybe because deep down she doesn't feel like either of them. She gets by pretending, though - at least until Father Philip shows up in her life.
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Title: you’re about to bloom
Rating: E
Pairing: Phil Lester/Phil Lester, Dan Howell/Phil Lester
Tags: 2018 Era (Phandom), Dan and Phil World Tour 2018: Interactive Introverts, Time Trave, lSelf-cest, Pain, Face Slapping, Slapping, Choking, Anal Sex, Spit as Lube, Glove Kink, Cuckolding, Voyeurism, Masturbation, Sexual Overstimulation, Crying During Sex, Rough Sex, Under-negotiated Kink, Brat Phil Lester, Dom Phil Lester, Smut, Light Angst
Summary:
The younger Phil standing in front of him, though, doesn't know. He doesn't know how they're going to make it through everything. He doesn't know what the future holds, or even if he's rehearsing for a show that is going to be called off. Phil can see the way he holds the tension in his body, the straight lines of his shoulder accentuated by his bright, red shirt and the straps of the leather apron. The way he's standing so straight, so rigidly uncomfortable that a strong breeze could snap him in half. The lost look on his face, his brows drawn in tight, mouth set in a thin line. His black-clad fists curled into a hard grip at his side.
Phil has never seen someone so in need of some stress relief in his life
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OR: 2026!Phil pays 2018!Phil a visit and they fuck it all out.
“You forgot you had an engagement ring laying around unused? You're unbelievable,” he huffs.
“I bought that back in 2013, and I haven't thought about it in forever okay?” Phil argues, but it makes Dan’s chest sink a bit.
0:47 ───ㅇ───── 2:44
or, when Dan finds an engagement ring laying in the bottom of a storage box. he starts to question the life he has with phil, and the things he's made phil sacrifice for it.
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