#disorder help

this is kind of urgent, but lately i've been wondering if i am a sys or not. (im probably not)

it's the fact that i usually forget stuff i did a lot, stuff i do and i don't even remember what i do, it feels like i'm somewhat like not even controlling myself, as if i'm js watching.

and i act different multiple times

either i'm just delusional or i have smth going on,,, if any of you know more please help,, im unable to get a diagnosis due to my country

My best advice for disorder help is to read case studies. Just google Histrionic Personality Disorder case studies and read, watch, listen to as many as you can. If you want to write a disorder accurately, you need extensive knowledge of how people are actually living with the disorder, and not just a list of symptoms. 

And I’m about to step on a soapbox (my apologies). Anon, I’m not referring to you specifically since I don’t know the specifics of your story, but I just want to say a general opinion. To me, when some writers want to write a character with a disorder, they’re not really interested in writing the disorder itself. They’re more interested in giving their protagonist an internal struggle they have to fight against, which will in turn make their journey towards their goals more difficult. 

I really dislike mental illness being used this way in fiction. I would rather it be the focus of the character’s struggle, instead of a mere obstacle that’s in their way. I don’t like mental illness being oversimplified for the sake of good fiction. 

If you’re not prepared to write the entire journey of someone that’s battling mental illness, and your only knowledge of it is from reading information about it, then I would avoid using mental illness at all. Don’t use a mental illness simply because you read about it and thought the symptoms sounded like interesting character traits. 

I googled Histrionic Personality Disorder, and here was the brief definition:

Histrionic personality disorder is a mental health condition in which people act in a very emotional and dramatic way that draws attention to themselves.

If you want to write a character who is very emotional and dramatic, and often draws attention to themselves, then write a character who is those things, rather than a character who has Histrionic Personality Disorder. Often times, a writer exploring disorder in their writing is more interested in the symptoms than the treatment, and I think that needs to stop.

Again, anon, I don’t mean to direct this at you specifically, but your question (and others like it) have got me thinking about it, and I know we have many, many followers who wish to write about mental illness, so it’s a relevant issue to address.