#discorvery

Rhodes, Greece

I got married when I was 20. I got my first kid when I was 21. I spent 9 years being a mom, a wife, a housekeeper, a maid, a cook, a handywoman. I spent 9 years being what everyone else needed and somewhere along the road I lost myself. I've now been divorced for one and a half year. It was his idea, but it was the right thing for us to do. It's been hard, I'm not going to lie. Even harder because while I've been doing this alone, getting back on my own feet, building a home for me and my kids, learning to be alone again - he went out and found another one. They moved in together, are now getting married and expecting their first kid in some 3 months. My kids adore her so that's always something. Instead of running out and trying to build a new family like my ex, ive been spending the time trying to figure out how to be me again. It's not easy. Well some of it is. It's freezing to be able to do stuff just because I love it, but some things have required some heavy would searching. Some of it still require a lot of work. But this is my journey. Laid bare, open, and filled with all my silly thoughts, my fears and hopes. My dreams, and my nightmares. This is me, finding myself.

I'm 24 now and I've just figured out how to dignify that question with my own answer. There's no real long or short answer to this question and to be honest no one can tell you the answer to this. I realised not too long ago that, the things and people you experience everyday and along the way are little fragments to that answer of discovering yourself. You discover and confront yourself of who you really are when you face certain situations that challenge your strength and weakness. Then that's when you slowly figure out who you are and what you stand for. I waited, stressed and felt depressed over this question for years and kicking myself for feeling dumb, when the real moment of discovering or feeling experiences is to live in the moment. I suppose it comes with age and experience. I always held my own back and never let somebody else made me feel like their more special than me. Even when it came down to not getting the jobs I wanted. Obviously you'd feel disappointed but I knew what I had and what I could bring to the table, it just came down to my "personality/character". I knew I had the relevant stuff, it just came down to wether you could gel with me or not and you know what? Not everybody is going to like you and that is cool. I know who I am and it won't knock me down. I believe in myself and the earth so much that I know all the work I put in at the moment will bring a better door that suits me. Leave the future where it is and if it's meant to be it will happen. Focusing your time on your future won't bring you anymore disconnection with yourself if you don't connect in the moment your in now.

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