But his twin brother..maybe!

Dang it! The stupid spark has lit a dead fire again! Well I guess I never really lost feelings for him, but... I did get over him. Even though I know I have no chance with him now cause of a lot of factors it's always nice to see him. I still find myself always wondering where  he is when I go to La Vang functions. Why why do I do this to myself? I didn't have to take the picture with him... no but I wanted that picture with him! I mean who could deny the cuteness from that picture hahaha ( not being cocky). I mean I have to admit and I hate to admit it, but it was nice to match with him. It was nice to see him again. It was nice to know that I look cute with him. Even though we do have a lot in common, and such... He will never like me. He just sees me as a girl who use to like one of his bestfriends. I thought we got on a personal level before I blew everything up. Gosh I wish I sometimes didn't move on from him to his "brother". Oh well things happen to for a reason. I know this is just a moment of weakness in the heart since I haven't liked anyone for awhile. Maybe that's why these feelings came up again. Then again did they ever really go away? His stupid charm and over-confident always get me :P I just wish he didn't see me as a little kid and that this year was the first year we met. Maybe now that we have a chance it's too late... He's in Portland and I'm in Seattle ( most of the time). I won't get hurt this time I know it. He's just another flame that needs to be put out :D