#dickbeard

so it's really hard for me to put my feelings into words. I've been struggling with this for a really long time. but this is a major thing that I haven't had a chance to really talk about yet so here it goes: wow I'm sooooo lucky to have Brian in my life. It's still weird in a way for me to refer to him as my boyfriend because I feel like he's so much more than that. Like that term seems like a 'demotion' for how much he has affected my life. either way, we've finally decided to stop denying this feeling, and accept it. It feels like home. from the beginning we've clicked. we had a connection. we never search for words. we can talk for hours and still compete to say the same thing first. He might not completely understand my art life, but he wants to listen. and I want to know about his photography life too. he's so creative and we both understand each other's goals and just want each other to succeed. we help each other grow. we teach each other constantly. we used to fight a lot, but because we weren't together. and it was honestly one of the most frustrating things of my life. either way, we have always established boundaries and respected those decisions. we've always been that person that we needed the other to be. he was patient when I told him I wasn't ready. he was my friend from the start, and he will always be my best friend. he's very supportive and encouraging and just makes me smile/laugh even when I'm so frustrated I could cry. It's hurting us both right now being so far away from each other. but no one has my heart like he does, and it's worth the wait. right now it's really hard to have time for much, and fitting in time for our relationship isn't always easy. but we make it work. we might not have all the time in the world each day to talk but when we do we make it count. he's the biggest sweetheart. goofy, handsome, cheesy, ok I could go on and on. The point of this is that : kikrocks310 I love you. thank you for being my best friend even when I wasn't being a great one to you. thank you for your never ending support. thank you for everything. For being you. I appreciate it so much and you make life so sweet. xoxoxoxoox

This one time Melanie sent me this funny face and I cried! 😂