#devout vents

i just keep hurting myself every time i open tumblr.

i miss my friends and my ocs

i miss roleplaying

I really fucked everything up

I miss my friendships and the calls and playing pressure

I hate grief i know this is never going to go away and i hate it because this is just how im going to feel forever

I know I don’t typically do this venting thing on here but I’ve been trying so hard to forget and to use my tumblr for what i want but god dammit if Im not in so much pain right now

I miss getting excited at seeing my thread getting reposted and a new rp coming up

I miss getting anon messages on my rp blogs

I miss planning angst and watching everybody get so upset and then we do a silly stupid rp after as an apology

I miss planning rps

I miss rping

I want my friends back