Dewberry Creek VII: Whiskey, My Dearest Enemy
The next morning is a headache for more than one person.
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The morning light comes in slats through the shutters of Leviticus Cornwallâs office, thin and pale, cut into stripes by the blinds. It does nothing to soften the dark room above the humming freight yard. The mahogany desk shines dark, the gilded clock on the mantel ticks. Outside, the city coughs and clatters itself awake: carriage wheels over stone, the groan of the riverboats' steam horns, the distant bark of men loading freight in the damp heat off the Lannahechee.
Cameron Spence stands before Cornwallâs desk with a folder tucked beneath his arm and the expression of a man carrying fresh meat into a lionâs den.
Cornwall does not sit at his desk. He stands at the window with his back to the room, his broad shoulders casting further shadow. His cigar burns between two fingers, but he has not bothered to smoke it. Ash clings to the end, glowing faintly.
âWell?â Cornwall spits, not turning around.
Spence clears his throat. âThe attorneys have reviewed the matter again, sir.â
âThatâs not an answer.â
âNo, sir.â Spence adjusts his spectacles with a damp hand. âThe issue remains the same. Frederick Shaw is confirmed deceased. We have that much established through witness testimony and the reports from Blackwater. HoweverâŚâ He hesitates.
Cornwall finally turns. The look alone is enough to make Spence wish the floor would open and swallow him neatly, paperwork and all.
âHowever?â Cornwall asks.
âHis widow is not proven dead.â
For one small second, the office becomes terribly still.
Then Cornwallâs cigar snaps between his fingers. A scattering of ash drops onto the polished floorboards. Spence continues quickly. âWithout some kind of proof of the widow Shawâs death, or her legal consent, the deed and surrounding land interests remain tied up. The charter filings around Limpany were thorough. Shaw arranged the deed so that upon his death, his interest would pass directly to his wife. Without her signature, the land remains beyond our reach.â
Cornwallâs eyes narrow. âDo not compliment him in front of me.â
âI did not mean to, sir.â
âYou said he anticipated pressure.â
âHe did.â
Cornwall steps away from the window. âHe was a provincial upstart playing mayor in a burned-out bend of river.â
âLegally, he was rather careful. Our research on him was that he was previously a lawyer here in Saint Denis.â
Cornwall slams his hand onto the desk. The sound cracks through the room like a gunshot. Spence stops speaking at once.
âI do not pay men like you to tell me what I can and cannot do,â Cornwall says, voice low now, worse than shouting. âI pay men like you to remove impediments.â
Spence swallows. âYes, Mister Cornwall.â
âLeland Development is breathing down my neck. I have surveyors waiting, capital waiting, oil contracts waiting, and every week that damned land at Limpany sits idle is another week that lesser men believe they can laugh at me.â
âNo one is laughing, sir.â
Cornwallâs mouth curls. âYou are either lying, Spence, or you are more foolish than I thought.â
Spence lowers his gaze. He has learned, over many years, that there are moments when agreement is the safest form of survival. Especially when dealing with Leviticus Cornwall.
Cornwall moves around the desk and picks up the folder Spence had brought. He opens it, scans the first page, then tosses it back down.
âSo find her.â
âWe are trying.â
âTry harder.â Cornwall sneers.
âThatâs why Agent Milton is here.âÂ
At the mention of his name, the door opens. Andrew Milton enters without apology. He removes his bowler hat and tucks it beneath one arm, his pockmarked face composed into a professional calm that Cornwall finds both useful and infuriating. Milton is a tall, sharp man, built less like a soldier and more like a blade. He gives Cornwall a reserved nod, then Spence, as he stands at attention. âMister Cornwall.â
Cornwall points at the papers on his desk. âMy vice president informs me that a dead man continues to inconvenience me through his very much missing wife.â
Miltonâs expression does not shift. âThat seems to be the long and short of it.â
âI assume you have something more useful to offer.â
âWe have widened the search.â
âWhere?â Cornwall demands.
âBlackwater first. Then Strawberry, Wallace Station, Valentine. We have men posted near stage routes, depots, post offices, and hotels. If she is traveling under her own name, we will find her.â
The magnate lets out a humorless laugh. âIf she is traveling under her own name. My God, Milton, do you think she's stupid?â
âNo,â Milton says. âFrightened, perhaps. Desperate. But not stupid.â
Spence glances between them. âIf she has fled east, she may seek Saint Denis. She lived here before, according to records.â
Milton nods. âWe have men making discreet inquiries.â
Cornwall steps closer to Milton. âDiscreet. I despise that word.â
âIt is sometimes the more effective approach.â
âIt is a word used by men who lack the stomach to be direct.â
Miltonâs eyes cool slightly. âI do not lack the stomach for anything, Mister Cornwall. But a deer being hunted tends to bolt if the dogs bark too loudly.â
Cornwall says nothing for a beat. Then he smiles, thin and ugly.
âDo not mistake yourself for my equal, Agent Milton.â
âI wouldnât dream of it, sir.â
âNo,â Cornwall says. âYou would not.â
The clock ticks. Somewhere down on the street, a horse screams at another horse. The city moves on, indifferent to the little storm gathering in that room.
Milton sets his hat on the corner of the desk. âWe do not believe she is dead.â
Spence stiffens, having already given that news to the magnate. Cornwallâs gaze sharpens.
âWhy?â Cornwall asks.
âNo body. No grave. No record of passage under her name, but also no sign of a woman matching her description among the unidentified dead after the Blackwater business.â Milton pauses. âShe is alive. We have a lead coming out of Valentine that a woman that sounds like her just spent a week there, holed up at the Saints Hotel.â
Cornwallâs jaw works.
âThen where is she?â
âThat,â Milton says, âis what I intend to discover.â The leather of his gloves squeals as his hand tightens over the corner of the desk.
âYou said the same weeks ago.â
âAnd since then, sir, the West Elizabeth situation has become complicated.â
Cornwall waves this off. âOutlaws. Ferries. Dead men. I am aware.â
Miltonâs gaze flicks briefly to Spence. âThe van der Linde gang has drawn a great deal of heat. Most local law is occupied with that disaster. It has muddied the water.â
Cornwall turns back to the window. âThen drain the water.â
Miltonâs mouth tightens. âI will find Ruth Shaw.â
âYou will bring her to me.â
Milton holds his stare. âAlive is preferable, I understand. But I cannot promise what condition she will be in if she runs into rough company.â
Cornwall lifts his chin. âDonât be poetic. It doesnât suit you. You and your men are as rough company as any of those miscreants outside these walls.â
âThen plainly, we will find her. We do not currently believe she is under the protection of any organized outfit. No evidence suggests she has joined with criminals or crossed into Mexico. Most likely, she is hiding alone, aided by strangers, or staying with some acquaintance from her prior life.â
Spence exhales softly, almost relieved.
No one in that room knows about the dried creek bed in New Hanover. No one knows about the wagons beneath old oak roots, or Susan Grimshawâs sharp voice, or Mary Bethâs curls bent over a book, or Arthur Morgan stalking through camp with a bruised heart and bloodied hands. No one knows that Ruth Shaw is not alone.
Cornwall presses his palm flat to the glass and looks down at the street as if he owns every soul moving upon it.
âThen pull apart her prior life,â he says. âThread by thread. Friends. Doctors. Land agents. Hotel clerks. Priests. Shopkeepers. I want every name. Every letter. Every charitable fool who may have looked at her and seen a woman worth saving.â
Milton picks up his hat. âUnderstood.â
Cornwall turns from the window.
âAnd Agent Milton?" Milton pauses at the door.
âIf you fail me in this,â Cornwall says, voice quiet as a knife drawn slowly from leather, âthe widow Shaw will be the least of your concerns.â
Milton inclines his head. Then he leaves.
Spence remains where he stands, folder clutched to his chest. Cornwall reaches for a new cigar. âWell?â Cornwall says without looking at him.
Spence blinks. âSir?â
âGet out.â
â
Cicadas shrill from the trees above like they are sawing the sun into pieces. You wake with a headache pressed behind your eyes.
Not from drink. No, that particular misery belongs to Arthur Morgan, whose silhouette you see at once across camp, bent over near his wagon with one hand braced against the wheel and the other pressed to his brow. He looks as if the morning itself has personally insulted him and intends to keep doing so.
Good. Let it.
You sit up from your bedroll and push your hair back from your face. Your curls have worked themselves wild during the night, strands sticking to your neck in the damp heat. For one foolish second, your body remembers the heat of him crowding you against the wall, the whiskey on his breath, the terrible things he said in a voice that made your own blood betray you.
Then the memory closes around your ribs. The guilt. The wedding ring hanging from your neck. Your husband, not three months gone. You reach for your boots.
Mary Beth is already awake beside you, sitting cross-legged with her hair loose down her back, tying one ribbon with the dreamy slowness of a girl not yet prepared to face the day. She watches you from under her lashes.
âYou sleep at all?â she asks softly.
You pull on one boot. âEnough.â
âThat donât sound like enough.â
âIt was enough.â
She presses her lips together. You can feel her wanting to ask more. She is gentle, Mary Beth, but not blind. Not stupid. She knows something happened in Rhodes, something to make you short-tempered and snap at her. But she wonât ask, wonât prod.
Across camp, Arthur straightens too quickly and immediately regrets it. He closes his eyes, jaw tight. His hat is low, but not low enough to hide the pallor beneath his tan.
Sean laughs at something near the fire, far too loud, too bright. Arthur turns his head with murderous slowness.
Seanâs laughter dies mid-note.
That almost pleases you.
Almost.
Abigail appears carrying a basket of laundry against her hip, Jack trailing after her with a stick in hand, drawing lines through the dust. She takes one look at you, one look across camp at Arthur, then gives the kind of sigh that suggests she has seen more than enough of men and women and the trouble they make when their hearts start chewing through their good sense.
âWell,â Abigail says, dropping the basket near the wash tubs. âAinât this morning just brimminâ with joy.â
You stand and brush your skirt smooth. âIâll help with washing.â
âYou donât gotta.â
âI said Iâll help.â
Abigail looks at you sharply, âAlright then.â
The two of you fall into work. Water sloshes. Soap roughens your hands. Your knuckles ache from scrubbing shirts that belong to men who never seem to notice laundry unless it is missing.Â
Tilly joins after a while, then Mary Beth, and the four of you make a small ring of labor at the edge of the camp.
Arthur is impossible not to notice.
You try. You fail.
He moves around his wagon with jerky irritation, gathering cartridges, checking a saddlebag, stopping once to swallow hard like his own stomach has turned traitor. He snaps at Bill for standing too close. He tells Sean to shut his damn mouth before Sean has even opened it. When Pearson asks him if he wants coffee, Arthur says something too low for you to hear, but Pearson takes three steps back and suddenly remembers business elsewhere.
âLord,â Tilly murmurs, wringing out a shirt. âSomebody oughta put him out of his misery.â
âOr ours,â Abigail chimes in.
Mary Beth looks at you. You keep scrubbing.
The shirt beneath your hands is already clean. You keep scrubbing anyway, dragging the fabric against the washboard until your wrists burn.
Abigail notices.
âYouâre gonna scrub holes through that,â she says.
You stop. Slowly, you wring it out and stand to hang it on the line. Of course, itâs one of Arthurâs shirts. Of course it is. Your skirt brushes your ankles, damp from splashed water. Your head throbs. Your heart throbs worse.
You do not look at Arthur. You look at the shirt. At the line. At the wooden pin in your hand.
Then Arthurâs voice cuts across camp.
âWhereâs my goddamn gun oil?â
The whole creek bed seems to pause.
John, seated near the fire, lifts his head like a dog hearing thunder in the distance. âHow the hell would I know?â
âI seen you messinâ with that crate.â
âI didnât touch your oil.â John snaps back, the scars on his face rippling with his scowl.
Arthur stalks toward him. âYou sure?â
John rises halfway, eyes narrowing. âWhatâs your problem?â
âMy problem is everybody in this camp touches what ainât theirs and then looks stupid when asked about it.â
âOh, you wanna talk stupid?â
âDonât,â Abigail snaps from the washtub.
John looks toward her. âI ainât started nothinâ, woman.â
âYou never do,â she says. âSomehow it always starts anyway.â
You hang the shirt. Your fingers tremble against the clothespin.
Arthur glances toward the womenâs side at Abigailâs voice, and for one second, his eyes catch yours. It is not soft. That might have been easier.
His gaze is bloodshot and bruised with hangover, shadowed by anger and something beneath it that he refuses to name. Your own anger rises to meet it, hot and immediate, a dog straining at its chain.
You look away first and hate that you do.
Behind you, Abigail makes a small sound. Not a sigh. Not a word. Something in between, edged with pity and annoyance. Like she knows everything that has gone on between the two of you.
âDonât,â you say quietly.
âI didnât say nothinâ.â
âYou were about to.â
She wrings a union suit so hard that water rains into the tub. âFine. I wonât.â
Mary Beth ducks her head, but her gaze keeps slipping between you and Arthur like she is reading one page, then the next, trying to understand how the story got so ugly overnight. Like one of her stories that she fawns over.Â
You lift another shirt from the tub.
âSome things ainât worth asking after,â you say, trying to backpedal on your tone previously.
Abigail gives you a sidelong look. âThat so?â
âMhm.â
âAnd some things rot if nobody airs âem out.â She says, with wisdom beyond her years.
You turn to her, anger flaring again. âSome things rot whether you air them out or not.â
The words come sharper than you intend.
Mary Beth stills. Tilly looks down at the water.
Abigailâs brows rise. For a moment, you think she might snap back, and some ugly part of you almost wants her to. Wants a clean fight. A simple one. One that has nothing to do with Arthurâs hands, Arthurâs mouth, Arthurâs wounded pride, Arthurâs talent for making you feel both safe and foolish in the span of a single breath.
But Abigail only nods once.
âAlright,â she says. âThen we wonât.â
That makes you feel worse.
You drop the shirt back into the tub and turn away.
âI need more soap.â
âThereâs some by Pearson,â Tilly says.
You know that, but go anyway.
Crossing camp feels like traversing open ground under fire. You feel eyes on you, or imagine them. Maybe both. Camp is too small for secrets. Grief can hide in tents and sorrow can tuck itself under shawls, but anger walks around in daylight. People notice the aura of it.
You reach Pearsonâs wagon and find the soap near a stack of tin plates. Pearson himself is busy stirring the pot with a grave expression, as if the future of civilization depends upon his continued punishment of carrots.
âMissus Shaw,â he says. âYou uh⌠need somethinâ?â
âSoap.â
âRight. Right there.â
âI see it.â
You take it.
Behind you, boots scuff the ground.
You know before turning.
Arthur stands a few feet away, hat tipped low, one hand resting near his gunbelt. Up close, he looks worse. His eyes are bloodshot. Stubble shadows his jaw. His mouth is set in a grim line, but there is a faint unsteadiness to him, a man held together by spite, leather, and the last bitter fumes of whiskey from yesterday.
You should walk away. You do not.
His gaze drops to the soap in your hand. âMorninâ.â
âAinât a good one.â You breathe back, trying to choke back a snarl that you wish desperately to let out.
Pearson suddenly becomes fascinated by the stew.
Arthur glances past you, toward the women at the tubs. Then back. âYou alright?â
You laugh once, low and sharp. âThatâs what you want to ask me?â
His expression hardens. âAinât allowed?â
âNot after yesterday.â
The two of you stare at each other. There are things you could say. Honest things. You could tell him you barely slept. That you felt something at his drunken confession. But your pride is like a thornbush, and you are standing in the middle of it barefoot.
Arthur rubs at his brow. âLook, RuthâŚâ
The sound of your name in his mouth twists something in you, âNo.â
His eyes narrow. âNo?â
âYou do not get to say my name like that after yesterday.â
His face closes. âLike what?â
âLike youâre thinking with anything other than your cock.â
That hits.
He looks away, nostrils flaring. âThat ainât fair.â
Your jaw catches as your eyes narrow. He wants to talk about fair? After yesterday? Pearson makes a very small squeak and shuffles backward from the fire.
Arthur takes half a step closer, then stops himself. His voice drops. âYou wanna do this here? In front of everyone?â
You look around. Abigail is watching openly now. Mary Beth less openly. John pretends not to. Sean doesnât even bother pretending until Charles gives him one quiet glance, and he turns away fast.
âNo,â you say. âI donât.â
âThen quit talkinâ like you do.â
Heat blooms in your throat. âDonât give me orders.â
His face goes pale beneath the tan. Anger flashes bright, but hurt is quicker.
For one heartbeat, the whole camp falls away. There is only Arthur Morgan, hungover and furious and wounded, looking at you like you are a door he cannot open without breaking the hinges.
Your fingers tighten around the soap. Instead of going any further, you turn and walk away.
The back of your neck prickles all the way to the wash tubs. You do not look back, though every part of you feels him watching. You sit down beside Abigail, toss the soap into the water, and plunge your hands after it.
No one speaks for a while.
Then Mary Beth murmurs, very softly, âRuthâŚâ
âPlease donât.â
Her mouth closes.
Abigail watches you with a curiosity and reservation that nearly undoes you. âAlright.â
Across camp, Arthurâs voice rises again, harsher than before, âMarston, move your damn saddle!â
John barks back. Bill laughs. Susan shouts at them all to quit acting like a pack of rabid dogs before breakfast.
The day continues because days are cruel that way.
â
By midmorning, the camp has settled into a wary rhythm.
You keep to the wash tubs with Abigail, Mary Beth, and Tilly, working until the skin at your knuckles goes tender from soap and water. Across camp, Arthur has finally stopped barking at every man within ten feet of him, though that only means he has retreated into a silence so foul it seems to sour the air around his wagon.
You are pinning the last of the shirts to the line when hoofbeats sound from the road above camp.
Charles looks up first. Then Javier. Then Arthur, one hand drifting toward his gun out of habit before recognition stills him.
Hosea Matthews rides down into the dried creek bed with his hat low and his coat dusty from the road. Silver Dollar picks his way between roots and wagon tracks with practiced patience, the grey horseâs ears twitching toward campfire smoke and voices. Hosea looks tired, but there is a brightness in his eye that suggests he has brought back something more useful than sundries.
Dutch steps out from beneath the shade of his tent before Hosea has even swung down.
âWell?â Dutch calls, spreading his arms as if welcoming some grand performer to the stage.Â
âWhat song does Rhodes sing, old friend?â
Hosea dismounts slowly, one hand pressed briefly to his lower back before he lets go of the reins. âAn ugly one.â
Dutch smiles. âThe ugly songs are often the most profitable.â
You look down at the shirt in your hands, but your ears tilt toward them despite yourself.
Hosea leads Silver Dollar to the hitching post and pats the horseâs neck before joining Dutch near the big tent. Arthur, who had been oiling a revolver at his wagon, looks up but does not move closer. Not at first.
Dutch gestures for Hosea to sit, but Hosea waves him off and pulls a folded newspaper from inside his coat.
âRhodes is rotten straight through,â Hosea says. âPretty little place on the surface. Clean streets. Fresh paint. Men smiling like they were born for town socials and fraud.â
Dutchâs expression warms with interest. âGo on.â
âYou were right about those two families. âYou were right about the Grays and Braithwaites,â Hosea says, pulling a folded newspaper from inside his coat. âRhodes belongs to them in all but name. Sheriff is a Gray. Leigh Gray. Cousin to the family, and apparently as purchasable as any other man with a badge.â
Dutchâs eyes brighten. âAnd the Braithwaites?â
âCatherine Braithwaite runs that place like an old queen holding court over a ruined kingdom. There is moonshine moving somewhere between the two houses, and enough talk of buried Confederate gold to keep every drunk in Rhodes dreaming.â
Dutch laughs low. âNow there is a woman worth meeting.â
Hosea gives him a look. âCareful.â
âMy dear Hosea, I am always careful.â
Arthur snorts. Dutch ignores him.
Hosea folds the newspaper again, but keeps it in his hand. âThereâs bad blood between the families. Not ordinary neighborly hatred. Generations of it. Land, liquor, pride, old murders, stolen horses, burned barns. Depends who tells the story. Truth is likely buried under a few generations of lies.â
âOld feuds,â Dutch says softly. âThey make men careless.â
âThey also make men violent.â
âYes, yes.â Dutch waves a hand. âViolence is the language of lesser minds. Fortunately, we speak many tongues.â
Hoseaâs eyes narrow slightly. âDutch.â
Dutch steps closer to Hosea, lowering his voice just enough that you have to strain to hear.
âSo what are you suggesting?â
âBetween the two families, thereâs all this talk of confederate gold.â
Dutch smiles slowly. âYou donât say.â
Hosea almost smiles, wiping his brow again.
Dutchâs gaze sharpens, âListen to what Hosea is saying. Two powerful families. Both proud. Both rich. Both hating each other so deeply that they likely cannot see the ground under their own feet. That, gentlemen, is opportunity.â
Arthur folds the rag over his revolver, finally entering the conversation. âOr a trap.â
âEverything is a trap if you walk into it blind,â Dutch says. âWe won't be blind.â
Hosea tucks the newspaper back into his coat. âThereâs also talk of moonshine. Lots of it. Braithwaites may be moving liquor. Grays may be trying to stop it, or steal it, or tax it. Depends whoâs talking.â
Dutchâs smile widens.
âThere,â he says. âCommerce.â
âCrime,â Hosea corrects.
Dutch spreads his hands. âIn America, old friend, the distinction is mostly paperwork.â
That earns a tired chuckle from John near the fire. Even Javier grins into his coffee.
Arthur is not smiling. His face is hard, shadowed beneath the brim of his hat, but his gaze is fixed on Dutch and Hosea with the wary attention of a man who can already hear hoofbeats in the distance.
Hosea continues. âThe Braithwaites think the Grays are beneath them. The Grays think the Braithwaites are poison. Both want to be seen as the true power in Scarlett Meadows.â
âAnd both will want outside hands,â Dutch says. âIf those hands are useful.â
âMaybe.â
Dutch points at Arthur. âThat is exactly why I need you to be subtle.â
Arthurâs expression sours. âChrist.â
Hosea looks toward him then, more serious. âDutch is right about one thing. We need to know the ground. You take Lenny and maybe Bill into Rhodes again. Not to start anything. Just listen. Find out where the Grays drink. Where the Braithwaites send their wagons. Who hates who. Who owes money. Whoâs scared. And for Christâs sake, donât start another bar fight. I heard that you slugged a man last night.â
âAnd Sean?â Dutch asks.
Hosea grimaces. âOnly if you want subtlety shot dead in the street.â
Arthur gives a short laugh despite himself, though it fades quickly.
Dutch clasps his hands behind his back and looks pleased, almost serene, as if the day has offered him a shining apple and he has not yet seen the worm beneath the skin.
âGood,â he says. âVery good. This is precisely what we need. A divided kingdom.â
Dutch goes on talking, already spinning the first thread of the scheme.
The day is still hot. The creek bed still smells of clay and smoke. Arthur is still angry. And somewhere south, two old families sit behind gates and painted walls, waiting to be discovered by wolves who think themselves clever enough to prey on both.
-
By early afternoon, Arthurâs head still feels full of broken glass.
Each sound cuts. Seanâs voice cuts. Pearsonâs ladle scraping the pot cuts. Johnâs boots in the dirt cut. Even the damn cicadas up in the trees sound like tiny saws worrying at his skull. But none of it cuts as deep as you walking away from him with that look on your face.
Arthur stalks toward his wagon because motion is easier than standing still. He finds the offending gun oil exactly where he left it.
That makes him angrier.
He snatches it from the crate and slams the lid shut. The bang sends a lance through his head. He swears, low and vicious, and presses the heel of his hand to one eye.
âRough morninâ?â
Arthur does not turn. âNot now, Hosea.â
Naturally, Hosea comes closer.
The old man moves quietly when he wants to. Today he wants to. Arthur hears the faint crunch of dry clay beneath his boots, then the soft exhale as Hosea leans against the wagon.
âYou and Missus Shaw seem cheerful.â
Arthur uncorks the oil. âAinât your business.â
âNo,â Hosea says. âBut that ainât stopped me before.â
Arthur looks at him then. âI said not now.â
Hoseaâs expression is mild, which means he is already angry. âYou can snarl at me all you like. Wonât make you less a fool.â
Arthur laughs without humor. âThere it is.â
âThere what is?â
âYou callinâ me stupid. Always gets there eventually.â
âYou certainly make it easy.â
Arthur turns away, jaw clenched. He picks up a revolver and begins cleaning it with more force than necessary. The cylinder spins under his thumb. Oil glints dark in the morning light.
Hosea watches him for a moment.
âYou drunk?â he asks.
âWas.â
âHungover, then.â
Arthur says nothing.
âExplains some of it.â
âSome of what?â
Hoseaâs voice hardens. âI saw the way she looked at you this morning. Then I rode into Rhodes and heard why.â
Arthurâs hand stills. His eyes flick toward the laundry tubs despite himself. The laundry is done, and the women disbanded, but Hosea knows who he is looking for.
âSheâs mad,â he says.
âCourse she is.â
âShe got a reason to be?â
âProbably,â Arthur admits, rubbing at his temple again.
âDid you frighten her?â
Arthurâs jaw tightens.
Hoseaâs voice goes quieter. âArthur.â
âI said things.â
âThat wasnât my question.â
Arthur looks at his foster father. âYou here to help or peck at me like a crow?â
âDepends whether thereâs anything useful left on the carcass.â
Despite himself, Arthur almost smiles. Almost. It dies before it reaches his mouth. He sets the revolver down and drags both hands over his face. The hangover pulses behind his eyes, but beneath it is something worse. A sick, low ache. Not the easy kind that can be beaten out of a man in a fistfight or drowned under whiskey.
He thinks of you saying he gives orders. He thinks of Owanjila and the moonlight. He thinks of Valentine. Of leaving you.
âI ainât mean to be ugly,â he says, so quietly Hosea almost does not hear.
âI know.â
âThat donât fix it.â
âNo,â Hosea says. âIt doesnât.â
Arthur picks up his hat from the wagon and puts it on, tugging the brim low. âI need to get outta camp.â
âArthur.â
âI need air.â
âYou need sense.â
âFresh out.â
Hosea steps in front of him before he can move off. The old manâs eyes are clear and tired and full of that terrible fatherly disappointment Arthur has never learned how to withstand.
Arthur exhales through his nose.
Hosea sees it all. Of course he does.
âArthur,â he says softly. But Arthur steps around him. He does not go far, only to the far edge of camp, where the old creek bed narrows, and the roots claw out from the banks like fingers. He lights a cigarette with hands that are steadier than he feels. Smoke fills his lungs, bitter and familiar.
Behind him, camp carries on. Ahead, the road waits.
Arthur smokes half the cigarette before throwing it down and crushing it beneath his boot.
By early evening, the heat has gone coppery and mean. It sits low in the creek bed, caught between the white clay banks, trapped under the roots and wagons and canvas, pressing sweat beneath collars and sourness into every look. Supper comes and goes with little ceremony. Pearsonâs stew is ladled out. Tin spoons scrape against tin bowls. Someone laughs on the far side of camp, but the sound dies quickly, as if even joy knows better than to linger too long in this fetid air.
At your end of the fire, there is mostly silence. Abigail eats with Jack tucked against her side, her eyes occasionally lifting toward you but never staying long. Mary Beth sits close enough that her skirt brushes yours, a quiet kind of comfort she does not force. Tilly picks at her food and watches the flames with a thoughtful frown.
Arthur keeps to the far side of camp.
He speaks only when spoken to. Even then, his answers are short, gruff things, half-swallowed before they can become conversation. His shoulders stay tight beneath his shirt. His hat is pulled low.Â
You feel Arthurâs eyes on you more than once.
You never give him the satisfaction of meeting them.
Let him look. Let him sit over there with his wounded pride and his hangover and all those things he refuses to say. Let him stew in it the way the rest of you stew in this cursed heat.
That is what you tell yourself. It doesnât help.
When the sky finally darkens into a deep indigo, and the first stars blink through the branches overhead, you stand without a word and carry your bowl to Pearsonâs wash basin. The campfire snaps softly behind you. Somewhere near the horses, leather creaks. Dutchâs voice murmurs low from his tent. The rest of camp begins to loosen into the night, bodies drifting toward bedrolls, bottles, cigarettes, and whatever small comforts can be stolen before sleep.
You slip away to the womenâs lean-to.
Mary Beth offers you a small, worried smile as you pass, but she does not follow. Abigail is already curled beside Jack, one arm thrown over him, her breathing slow and even. Tilly is a dim shape in the corner, snoring softly with her shawl bunched beneath her cheek. Susan Grimshaw is absent, likely still making some final round of camp like a general inspecting a battered army.
You are grateful for the quiet.
You crawl into your bedroll fully dressed, boots kicked off, but skirt still tangled around your legs. The canvas above you sags low, patched and stained, the pitch of the lean-to pressing down like a held breath. The night air is thick and humid, carrying the distant snorting of the horses, the hum of insects, and the occasional pop of the dying fire.
Every small sound feels too loud. A murmur near the menâs wagons. A horse blowing through its nose. A tin cup knocked softly against wood. Your own breathing.
You turn onto your back and stare up at the sagging canvas.
You are furious with him.
Furious at the way he looked at you this morning, like you were something he both wanted and resented. Furious at the way he pushes and pulls, saves and wounds, touches tenderness with one hand and reaches for cruelty with the other.
Furious that even now, hours later, your body still remembers him. The shape of his hands.
The rough scrape of his voice when he told you what he wanted to do to you.
You close your eyes tightly.
You will not do this. Not here. Not with Tilly sleeping several feet away and Abigail breathing softly beneath her blanket. Not with the camp spread around you in the dark, full of ears and gossip and ghosts. Not with anger still sitting hot beneath your ribs.
But your body is a traitorous thing.
It remembers yesterday in pieces. His weight. His breath. The way his frame caged you in, covered you, and smothered you.
You press your thighs together beneath the blanket, trying to will the ache away, but it only sharpens.
âDamn you, Arthur,â you whisper into the dark.
The words vanish into the canvas and humid night.
Your hand slides down before you can talk yourself out of it.
The fabric of your skirt bunches at your waist. Your fingers slip beneath the thin cotton of your drawers and find you already wet, shamefully so. You bite the inside of your cheek to stay silent, eyes shut so tightly that little sparks bloom in the dark behind your lids.
You think of him anyway.
Of his broad shoulders braced over you yesterday. Of the ragged scrape in his voice when anger tipped into want. Of his hands braced beside your shoulders, keeping you there without touching what he threatened to take.
You imagine those same hands between your legs instead.
Thick fingers. Calloused skin. His mouth at your ear, voice rough and low, telling you to be quiet so the whole damn camp doesnât hear.
Your breath hitches.
You circle your swollen clit with two fingers, quick and angry, chasing the feeling. Like if you can make yourself come apart fast enough, hard enough, you can burn him out of your blood. The tension coils tight in your belly, winding higher with every stroke of your most sensitive skin. Then it hits sharp and bright. You shove your face into the crook of your arm to muffle the small, choked gasp that escapes. Pleasure flashes through you in fierce waves, pulsing outward until your thighs tremble beneath the blanket and your fingers still against your own slick heat.
For a few seconds, there is nothing but the rush of it. The relief, the heat. Then it fades.
And the anger is still there.
Worse now, somehow. Now something thin and aching.
You lie there panting quietly, fingers still pressed between your legs, the cooling slickness of your arousal making you feel suddenly exposed despite the blanket pulled over you. Your heart beats too fast against your ribs. Your eyes sting with something that might become tears if you let it.
You withdraw your hand, wipe it against the edge of your blanket, and stare up at the sagging roof of the lean-to.
The ring at your throat has slipped loose from beneath your chemise. Frederickâs ring. Cold against your damp skin.
You close your fist around it until the metal bites your palm.
The ache between your thighs fades eventually.
The rest of it does not.













