"For our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the world powers of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavens." – Ephesians 6:12 Upon a lunch break study at university, actually I wouldn't call it a break, I would call it more of a breakdown and a complete and utter self doubting session. After a quick discussion with one of my tutors I found I was left feeling completely uncertain about my design ideas and if someone doesn't give me full affirmation of anything I do I find very quickly I doubt myself and my abilities and leave the door wide open to the negative voices to come in, (or more so as I am a Christian I come up against spiritual warfare and find that the lies of the enemy will then attach themselves to this and pull me deeper and deeper into self doubt, negativity or worry that I'm not doing the right thing and lose any sense of conviction that I may have previously had. Upon my break(down) I just briefly read over a daily readings page that I look over from time to time and today it was exactly what I need to read (funny how that happens) I know at times of difficulty when I doubt myself or don't feel good enough or move into comparisons are the times when I need to give it to God and get him to show me who I really am. A big part of what I want to create moving forward as mentioned previously is creating a brand which embraces identity and getting women to be all that they can be. A big part of me becoming more and more comfortable with myself was drawing on my strength and my faith in God, a big part of what I am looking to incorporate into my project. An eventful day I suppose is always when I am forced to look at myself and look at ways of improving myself but also at times accepting myself fully for who I am, and today was a perfect example of this I want to learn to stand by my convictions of my ideas even when other people don't understand them. All in a day's work!
