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The Weight Of One Word • P. Harder

pairing: pernille harder x reader

word count: 2.4k

summary: one careless sentence, spoken in anger nearly tore apart the love of a lifetime; but sometimes, even the deepest wounds can lead back to eachother.

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Y/N’s POV:

It started with the sound of rain on the bus windows.

A thin, unbroken rhythm, like a pulse that refused to die. No one spoke. No one even looked up. The smell of grass, sweat, and heartbreak clung to our clothes like punishment.

We had lost.

Not just a game. The game — the one that was supposed to prove we were still who we thought we were. The one that would erase every doubt, every headline. Instead, it stripped us bare.

Pernille sat three seats ahead, her headphones on, eyes fixed on the black glass of the window. Even from behind, I could feel the tremor in her shoulders — that quiet, dangerous stillness she gets when she’s fighting herself.

When we finally reached home, the sky was a bruise.

Neither of us turned on the lights.

I followed her inside, the click of the door locking sounding louder than it should. She tossed her bag to the floor and stood there, breathing hard, as if the house itself were shrinking around her.

“I missed two chances,” she said, her voice rough. “Two.”

“Everyone missed something,” I whispered.

Her laugh came out sharp, bitter. “Don’t do that, Y/N. Don’t say what people say when they’re trying to make it better.”

“I’m not—”

“Yes, you are.” She turned to me, eyes bright with fury and grief. “You don’t get it. You never do.”

The words stung, not because they were cruel, but because they weren’t true.

I stepped closer. “I get it more than anyone.”

“Then why,” she said, voice rising, “did you let them through? You were right there.”

The air left my lungs.

Her accusation fell between us like lightning — silent for a moment, then everywhere at once.

I could see she regretted it the second it left her mouth, but it was too late.

Her lips parted. “Wait, I didn’t mean—”

But I’d already heard the rest of it, the one sentence she hadn’t said yet, the one that sat behind her eyes.

“You made us lose.”

The words were not loud. They didn’t need to be. They split something open inside me anyway.

I looked at her — the woman I’d built my world around — and for the first time, I couldn’t find her in the room. Just a stranger drowning in her own anger.

“Say it again,” I said, my voice steady, terrifying even to me.

She froze. “No, I—”

“Say it again, so I can stop wondering if you meant it.”

Tears welled up in her eyes, but I couldn’t stay to watch them fall. I walked past her, the echo of my footsteps following me down the hallway.

“Elskede, please,” she whispered. “Don’t go.”

But I was already gone.

The night air hit me like cold glass as I stepped outside. I didn’t take the car. I just walked — through the sleeping streets, through the storm that had been waiting for us since we left the stadium. The rain soaked through my jacket, my jeans, my heart.

By the time I reached my mother’s house, dawn was beginning to smear the sky with grey.

She opened the door without a word, saw my face, and simply held me.

There’s a kind of crying that doesn’t make a sound — the kind that lives in your throat and burns behind your eyes. That’s the one I did.

When I woke up later, the house smelled of coffee and rain. My mother left me a note on the table: She called. I didn’t answer.

I sat there for a long time, staring at that line. Half of me wanted to throw my phone into the sea. The other half wanted to run home and fall into her arms.

But pride is a heavy thing to carry. It digs into your shoulders and tells you that forgiveness is weakness. So I stayed.

Pernille’s POV:

The first day without her feels like a room with no air.

The second day feels worse.

I train alone, though every movement echoes with her absence — her laugh behind the drills, her hand brushing mine between sprints, the sound of her breath when we collapse side by side on the grass. The field is the same, but I am not.

At night, I replay it again: the moment the words left my mouth. You made us lose.

How small they sounded. How huge they became.

I didn’t mean them.

That’s the thing about anger — it’s never about the person standing in front of you. It’s about the mirror they hold. That was my wife. My everything. She’s the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. She’s the one I vowed to love and protect with my whole heart and soul.

I drive before I can talk myself out of it. The highway hums under the tires; every sign looks like a chance to turn back. I don’t.

When I reach her mother’s house, it’s mid-afternoon. The rain has stopped, but the air still smells of it. My hands tremble on the steering wheel. In the passenger seat lies the bouquet — wildflowers, the kind she loves. Not arranged, just gathered. Real.

I knock.

Her mother opens the door. Her eyes soften the moment she sees me. “She’s in the garden,” she says quietly.

The path is lined with lavender and rosemary. At the end of it, she was sitting on the old wooden bench, her hair pulled back, the same blue sweatshirt she wears when she wants to disappear.

She hears my footsteps and turns. Her face is calm, but her eyes — those clear, steadfast eyes — hold everything.

I stop a few feet away, clutching the flowers like a shield.

“I shouldn’t have said it,” I start. My voice shakes. “I was angry, and scared, and—”

“—and human,” she finishes softly.

I swallow. “I hurt you. The one person who never deserved it.”

She looks down at her hands. “You think saying sorry fixes it?”

“No.” I kneel in front of her, the damp grass cold against my knees. “I think it’s the only thing I can do before I learn how to make it right.”

She exhales — a sound between a sigh and a sob. “You know what that sentence did?” she asks. “It made me wonder if all the years I spent protecting you on the pitch meant nothing. If the way we fight for each other stops the second the whistle blows.”

“Don’t say that,” I whisper. “You’re the reason I ever fight at all.”

Silence. The kind that holds the weight of everything said and unsaid. Then she reaches out, hesitant, her fingers brushing the edge of the bouquet.

“Wildflowers,” she murmurs.

“Because they survive anywhere,” I say. “Even after storms.”

Her lips twitch — the ghost of a smile. “That’s very you.”

“I was hoping it could be us.”

Something in her breaks then. The wall, the distance — all of it. She stands, and before I can breathe, her arms are around me. The flowers tumble between us, petals crushed against our chests.

She smells like home.

“I’m still angry,” she whispers into my neck.

“I know.”

“I still love you.”

I pull back just enough to see her face, to trace the tears that have carved tiny rivers down her cheeks. “That’s why I came.”

We stand there in the quiet garden, the sky pale and kind above us, and the world finally feels like it’s starting to breathe again.

Later, we sit on the bench, shoulder to shoulder. She picks a stray petal from her sleeve and turns it between her fingers. “Next time we lose,” she says, “promise we lose together.”

“Always,” I tell her.

Her hand finds mine, warm, steady. I bring her hand to my mouth, settling a kiss on her left ring finger, on the ring that glistened, as if reflecting forever. “I meant everything I said that day at the alter. We win together, we lose together too.” She smiled at me. A real smile. That soft cheesy grin which could brighten the darkest room.

The air smells of lavender and rain. Somewhere inside the house, her mother hums a song through the open window. It’s soft, distant — like forgiveness itself.

And just like that, the weight lifts.