so this one kind of came into being when i was fucking around with prompt generators and got the combo of "don't touch me" + "how could you hide this from me?" and i started thinking about different scenarios where sam and rowena had been apart for a long-ish while and then my brain went "make it more painful, make it after her death".

basically, they sleep together once a few weeks before her death, allowing themselves to cross the line they've been toeing because the world is ending etc etc etc. anyway- rowena dies. sam is very sad. fast forward a few months and he sees her in hell and something feels different about her but he can't figure out what it is until he stays behind after dean and cas leave to try to talk to her and the glamour she'd been upholding fades for a split second and he realizes she's hiding that she's pregnant.

i haven't worked out all the kinks beyond them having very angsty sex in the throne room about it but my vague plans are it's like 5/6 chapters while they figure out what the hell to do, how to get rowena's soul/body back to earth because she actually hates ruling hell (i'm biased), and then reconfigure the end of s15 only. to my liking.