Fixer x Jedi!Reader Headcanons. Warnings: none. not edited. kind of all over the place.
The only way the other Deltas would know that Fixer had a crush on you at all is because they could see his pulse rate spike through the system in their helmets whenever you came around.
If anyone told you, you would think they were joking.
Fixer doesn’t do long lingering stares or heavy sighs of yearning.
No, he pushes it down the best he can. He is a soldier first and foremost and emotions take a backseat to whatever mission they’re on.
But just because he doesn’t show how he feels doesn’t mean his feelings aren’t just as real as his brothers’.
Fixer is pragmatic. He knows that any relationship he could have while the war is going on would most likely end in tears. They’ve all accepted that they most likely won’t see the end of the fighting.
And with him having feelings for a Jedi? He 100% doesn’t see any chance at all for it. He just keeps waiting for the day that he finds out that Darman and Etain have been found out… or that one of them is dead.
Just because he’s not flirting relentlessly or trying to be the center of your attention doesn’t mean he doesn’t do little quiet acts of affection though.
He has caf made every morning. And it is always the way you like it.
He’s updated your datapad to be more efficient for you and made it so no one can hack into it. He may say it’s just so you can be well equipped to help them as most you can while on missions with them….
It’s really just for him to show off what he enjoys doing.
If you wear any kind of armor, he’s checking it for any flaws. He doesn’t need you dying on them mid battle…. Or worrying about you more than necessary.
The moment he went from just a crush that he could pretend was nothing to ‘I want to marry them’ was when you lost your lightsaber and fought a Trandoshan with your bare hands.
After that moment, Fixer no longer leaves as soon as you finish briefing them or planning your attack. He lingers and observes and joins in a little more often during conversations.
It takes some time but his dry humor leaks out of him one day and causes you to laugh uncontrollably. You might have expected something like that from one of the others, but hearing it from Fixer made it all the more funny.
He hangs on to that moment and replays it in his head for weeks.
Enjoys just existing in the same space as you even if you’re just reading or meditating. He doesn’t feel like there is an expectation for him to force conversation. It’s just peaceful silence where he can look over landscapes or schematics of the next location Delta Squad will be going to.
His signature in the Force is almost soothing, so you never mind that he always seems to be close by. He knows who he is and what he’s made for, and somehow that just gives off the most calm signature.
It’s like they say in the beginning of the Republic Commando game, he is their ‘foundation.’ He keeps a straight head on even when everything sucks… even if it means leaving someone he loves behind. He knows what needs to be done.
Sergeant Vau trained him not to be distracted by beautiful faces and his own desires.
And unfortunately, no matter how badly he wants to be with you. He won’t make the first move. Because that would be nothing but a complication and a distraction. But he will always wonder what would happen if he had asked you to be his.
But if YOU outright showed interest in him and started flirting… things could go a different way.
Don’t expect him to lower his walls and let you into what he is thinking or feeling for a while.
Even after you’ve been together for a bit, don’t expect huge grand gestures. He loves deeply but quietly.
I’ve never seen Fixer as shy. Quiet, yes. But I don’t think he is nervous or scared to talk around people. If he doesn’t have anything to say or anything he feels like will add any real value to the conversation, he just doesn’t speak at all.
But if you outright flirt with him, he doesn’t know how to respond. It’s not that he doesn’t like it. He just had zero training on how to flirt.
Once he felt more comfortable with you though…
It’s him standing close to you, shoulder pressed to yours as he teaches you to slice into a complicated console. A whispered ‘good girl/boy’ to you that you’re not quite sure you heard.
His fingers linger just the smallest bit too long when you pass something to him.
He holds eye contact with you when you speak and gives you his unwavering attention even when it’s not about an upcoming target.
He will give you quick kisses in deserted areas of their ship or in the dark shadows of the barracks. His thumb gently rubs your cheek after he pulls away.
Vau gives Fixer a quizzical look more than once because of how closely he stands beside you now. If you were to inhale deeply, you’d be able to feel the Katarn armor against your back.
His brothers don’t give him a hard time about it because now he can’t say anything to them if they get involved with anyone romantically.
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