#deftinesia

a no-context RISK chap twenty-three teaser;

wow super mysterious WHO could this be i have no clue !!!!!!!! (。＞＜) this one’s for you anon i was just gonna go to bed but i wanted to hold true to my promise and deliver a tiny crumb <3 i hope you’ve all been doing well !! so happy there are still readers who are patiently waiting for RISK updates ily

i don’t have much left to write with this chapter. sitting at 7k words with another scene to write. if i continue working on this chapter as frequently as i have been (pretty much every weekend/my days off) i should be done with the first draft soon but no promises !!!!! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ i’m ready to get this chapter done because the story’s pacing is gonna start kickin off and getting wild weeeee

also Какое ваше любимое уменьшительно-ласкательное имя для Владимир? Вова, Володя, Волоша, Волька ? any others ?? pls let me know i’m just conducting research for scientific reasons haha <33 apologies for botched russian forgive me

˚୨୧₊

Since I can't reblog and the reblog that i did is gone from my page because the person in question didn't want to educate me (why tag it if you don't want to?), let's do it like this.

How does not posting on social media which SIDE he's on make him just as guilty? He didn't post about Russia-Ukraine, so he's pro Russia and guilty of killing Ukrainian people? He didn't post about Azerbaijan-Armenia and China-Taiwan either. You know we don't even know his age right? Because he doesn't share personal things about himself. It's fine to keep your war stance private. Alain is guilty of calling for genocide because he keeps his war opinions off social media. Just like the rest of his personal life.

Remember guys, if someone doesn't put their whole life and every detail on social media because they don't like to be that personal online, they are pro-Israel and want all Palestinians killed. Not posting their war opinions online doesn't make someone pro anything.

And this post, Defti, is the whole reason they don't post it online for people like you and this anon to hate on them without reason. You're just speculating.

I also really liked the ghost scene (yk which one I mean 😼). This pathetic man is so sexually frustrated I almost feel bad for him… anyways, I was wondering if you were planning to write anything similar to that scene for reader.

I know she has a lot on her plate, but I think it could be interesting to see her more sexual and lustful (that sounds so biblical, sorry) side, and how she views Ghost in that way. And honestly, I think this girl deserves some stress relief from the shit she goes through.

Unless, of course, you have a reason for not incorporating that part of her character. I can imagine what those reasons might be after the implications of what happened to her while she was locked up…

I think it could be really interesting and complicated, so that’s why I asked!

Anyways, good luck writing and all that. Remember to take breaks whenever you want, and to write when you want to write. You don’t owe us anything, remember that! <3

eeee i’m glad to know you liked it ! and ugh, that moment with price was everything <3 that’s my man

oh luv … you’re right on the money with that one ! no spoilers BUT the next two or so chapters will be pure self-indulgent forced proximity. with a wounded reader, she can’t exactly run away (metaphorically and literally) from her tangled feelings for ghost. things they’ve avoided, denied, didn’t look at or name for fear it’d become all too real—may rear its head.

these next two or so chapters will allow them to just … take a breath for once. with reader’s life not hanging in the balance and the danger cleared, she may be able to acknowledge her physical needs and other stuff too.

I read your fic and it honestly put me in an embarrassingly big book slump. Nothing I’ve picked up since has hit the same. Your writing feels very poetic but never forced, and there were moments where I had to pause because a line crushed my heart omg. I got embarrassingly emotionally attached to the story, and yes, i SOBBED.

I have such a soft spot for your Y/N. The way you write their emotions feels so human and raw, and it made everything hurt in the best way. Also, Ghost and Y/N need to heal their respective traumas together or I may simply pass away. I trust your judgment, but I am emotionally wrecked by them now.

I hope this isn’t too personal to ask, but have you ever thought about pursuing writing professionally? If that’s something you’ve ever doubted, I just wanted you to know that your voice feels very rare. Like the kind of writing that stays with people long after they close the tab.

Also, quick question. In the last chapter during the panic attack, Vova is mentioned, and I just wanted to check if I missed an earlier reference to him or if that’s something meant to be a bit unclear right now. Totally possible I skipped over it unintentionally.

One last thing (sorry, I know this is getting long) I’ve developed a very sad little headcanon that Y/N would be an incredibly gentle, loving mom, and that thought has not left my brain since. I just had to share it.

No pressure to respond at all. I just wanted you to know how much your work meant to me!!

aaaaaah thank you (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) i can’t say i don’t write completely for myself without other people in mind. deep down, i’ve always wanted my work to impact people the same way the fics & books i read impact me, too. it’s TRULY an honor to know you were able to feel something from my work.

i did consider writing professionally when i was younger. i’d have to look into the process of self-publishing to see how realistic it is for me !

there is an earlier reference to vova and that memory, though it’s teeny tiny *⁀➷

hi luv ! no bother at all <3 i should be thanking you for your sweet words. thank u sm muah ( ˘ ³˘) ♡ i’m so glad you like it !!!

while i do love pwp fics — one of my all-time fav fics is actually smut heavy — a slow burn with tension, messiness, and other forms of intimacy established first (non-sexual physical, emotional, etc) is extremely satisfying. it’s also satisfying as a reader myself when i’m 1000+ pages deep or even multiple books deep and the characters finally have that moment.

RISK is a longfic, so the slow burn has had plenty of time to simmer. we have the tension, messiness, and we’ve even worked our way up to emotional intimacy and vulnerability (though we’re going to get even more here soon . . .) i think we are entering a new phase with RISK where smut can be introduced to the story, but serves to add even more to the tension, messiness, and overall vulnerability without detracting from the slow burn-ness of it all — or i hope so !

hi my luv ! ofc you can get a status update ˚୨୧₊ i won’t drop any teasers though since i’m very close to finishing this chapter ! i’m essentially 99% done with the first draft and it needs a quick round of editing before posting !

something big is coming (like actually);

HIII i bring good news ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) i’ve finally finished the first draft of chapter 22. all i have left to do is edit it and post it ! in the meantime, i’ve already started to outline the next chapter and i’d like to start working on that as well ‎♡‧₊˚

i was debating on whether i should hold off on any announcements / updates, edit chapter 22, and surprise post it once i’m done with chapter 23 so you’ll have two chapters to read (as an apology) but since it’s been so long, i’ll just edit this in the upcoming days and post it so you don’t have to wait much longer — thank you for your endless patience my luvs !

other personal good news and oversharing below [CW: medical talk, procedures, current events]*⁀➷

As always don’t wanna put pressure! Just pushing my luck purely to sustain my unhealthy obsession with the story <3 all the love

you’re not annoying at all luv if you’re a little rat you’re MY little rat (endearingly) !!!!! and i love u ( ˘ ³˘) ♡ pls know it’s no pressure at all and i appreciate you checking in to see how things are coming along <3

i’ll post a small scrap of an update this weekend ! i’m pretty far along with this chapter, i think i’m around 6 or so thousand words and like 75% done — i’ve made a few changes and i’m debating on adding another scene towards the end or whether i should include it in the next chapter. depends on if it flows well, or if it seems like it’s dragging the pacing too much.